[Vendetta]

I don't feel sexy either in my suposedly sexy tops, I feel flat. I always have to put on padding to feel powerful. I did it all my life and I'll do it forever until sugery. I stopped fighting against padding cause it makes me feel so good that I don't want to trade that for the psychological disconfort of going braless. That's just me and I can't be diferent and I don't care now. I love to play with clothes and I find it hard without breasts. I've noticed lately that all the girls in my night class are small-breasted, they're all A and a couple of B-cups (all larger than me except for one). There's only one that is really attractive, although I keep telling her to dress nicely cause she's pretty, she doesn't really have a fancy taste lol None of them dresses nicely actually. Two of them rarely wear a bra and when they do is padded, the other one is so so skinny that it is impossible for her to have any breast tissue at all so I can notice the padding really well. I have to confess I think they look kinda weird without the padding but it could be because of the way they present themselves.


In my teens I was "punk as fuck", armed up in my high-up-to-my-knee army boots and bright red hair, got lip pierced and still do have nose, ears, tongue, bellybutton and nipples pierced, besides the small tattoos. At 15 years old I had just seen my mother die so I didn't wanted to grow up the way I had to and the last thing that would ever cross my mind at that time was if I was being judged by anyone for my behaviors and looks. I played bass-guitar in Hardcore and Punk bands for 12 years, I played all around the country (Portugal is really small lol) sharing stages with all kind of bands joining all kind of people. For about 5 or 6 years I was the only girl who played in such bands (our punk scene here in Portugal is that small) but I did well.
I always took care of myself and loved to feel sexy in every kind of clothes, so I was a well taken care of and well educated freak. Breasts never really mattered besides curiosity, and with my padded bras it had never crossed my mind that someone would judge me for them.
One day I looked back and I had nothing. Besides experiences and having lived way more than is expected at my age, I had no goals. I got a decent job, started studying again and moved out, so I finally grew up the whole thing and have put things into perspective.
When booby-greed came in I didn't know how to deal with self-image issues. I too have that second though that you Karategrrl have, as "Well, there are folks who wonder what it's like to have feet or arms." It's kinda sad to make that comparison but sometimes I feel almost as curious as a man does for them, being a woman myself, not to mention that sexually I do respond when I see breasts. I'm gonna stay like this a long time but I know someday I'll trade that curiosity for them. But that doesn't bother me that much anymore. It is possible to take something like plastic surgery as a good thing, if you don't have self-esteem issues, although is not for everyone.
As for a healthier way of getting breasts, it is now possible. Macrolane is a biological gel that is injected into your breasts, gives you just a fuller look to what you've got but it only lasts around 2 years at maximum. The body absorbs it as it is biological and then you have to put Macrolane again. And the prices at each time are similar to surgery so I think there won't be many women going for Macrolane, although they're doing it already around here. But hey, technology is listening to us.
Just wanted to vent

Cheers V

[karategrrl]

"Team tittie," Bwah ha ha ha! Love it.

I also wonder what it'd be like to have breasts--well, big enough ones to grab, mold into bras and clothes, to look down and see a little cleavage and actually feel them bounce around...

Whenever I think that, my next thought is always, "Well, there are folks who wonder what it's like to have feet or arms." I don't know why my next thought it that, but it sure is humbling. I guess there is always someone who wishes they had something.

And though we all here know the risks of implants, right now that is the closest many of us would ever get to having bigger breasts. Maybe technology will offer other, safer, options at some point, but for now it's either "the ittie bittie tittie committee" or implants. I know I would never really get them, but I have had my moments where I thought, "Screw it, I just want to know, once in my life, what it's like!!" (Then I loop back to the above feet/arms thought...)

You know what has really made an impact on me lately? The comments under "26 Reasons" on www.implantsout.com. Ick. Even if I had the surgery and everything went perfectly well, I know I couldn't live with the things she describes there. I'd feel like some weird half-human/half-android science experiment.

ailurophile, those boys sucked. But I wonder how many of them are now with small-breasted women, hmmmm? I remember boys in my 6th grade class complaining that all the girls in the class were "flat-chested," and they, at 11 and 12, were all trying to convince each other they'd already had sex. Like, yeah, riiiight. It's that male "proving" thing we've discussed before. Funny thing was, I was one of the first girls to get my period, but I was able to fly under the radar due to my small breasties--I escaped so much of that teasing the poor big-breasted girls got. I could hide my Tampax but the other girls couldn't hide their boobs.

[ailurophile]

Glad you're back Vendetta. I'm not sure that there is a day that goes by that I don't think about implants. But I'm trying to stay on this side. For every surgery, we are giving into society's expectations. Besides my bf loving something fake, the $cost$ and obvious medical risks, I now feel like I would betraying my "sisters", although we have never met. I'm at war with myself and keep trying to talk myself out of surgery. You would think I have enough reasons to like me as I am. And my new little sexy tops that I was telling you about?? I don't feel sexy in them. I feel flat!!! But b/c of this support group, I still wear them (without a bra, at home). Bf hasn't said a word though. He just kinda notices for a second...no expression...nothing. I still wonder if he thinks, "Why is my titless girl wearing that??" Maybe that's why I'm feeling down again.

Regarding our conversation about winter clothes, I just bought several sweaters from www.venus.com. If I tuck in my belly, I feel like I look sexier...depends on my mood (not today). Of course, I still wear a padded bra. I look cuter than in the big frumpy sweatshirts and fleeces anyway. If anyone lives in Florida, Venus has three stores there. They do have cute sexy clothing. The prices are good. The ones I got ranged from $14 (that one was on sale) to $39 and the quality is pretty good. I like those new Boucle sweaters. They fit tight but can stretch down my long arms.

Neurotic.nelly: Ugh! I have nightmares about the itty bitty titty committee. In sixth grade when I was the last to bloom, the boys used to say I belonged to that. I've hated them ever since...those boys... and my titties.

[neurotic.nelly]

*applauds Vendetta*

nice to have you on the team tittie and/or the itty bitty titty committee again! whoot!

[Vendetta]

I like myself, I've hated before but not anymore. What other people think about it, I just couldn't care less and the only time I did was with actual bf for obvious reasons, and is over. But I'm still curious to know what it feels like to have breasts and that's where surgery comes in. But I'm tired. The problem has been myself all the time. Fuck me. Cheers Karategrrl

[karategrrl]

I've come to terms with myself a while ago cause I'm simply tired. It is a vicious cycle I don't wanna live anymore. I still want that surgery although I don't have that demeaning urge anymore, cause then I'll realize breasts are not that important after all and will move on.

I hear ya, grrl. I have also reached that tired state--I've decided to just like myself and move on, and f*ck anyone who's got a problem with me as I am. It's easier, for one thing.

[Vendetta]

I've come to terms with myself a while ago cause I'm simply tired. It is a vicious cycle I don't wanna live anymore. I still want that surgery although I don't have that demeaning urge anymore, cause then I'll realize breasts are not that important after all and will move on.

[karategrrl]

There's a really interesting article in October 2008 More magazine (U.S. anyway) about a woman who got breast implants. I have to say it's probably the most un-biased one I've read.

This is also interesting:
http://www.implantsout.com/media.htm

[GirlFilth]

cute handmade clothing for small busted Busties!

That's so great, thanks!

[anarch]

I like her stuff, crinoline, thanks for posting. Her prices are darn good. She can't be making $$ at it. Must be a labour of love.

[crinoline]

cute handmade clothing for small busted Busties!

[Vendetta]

But around here they only work with B-cups and on their size 1 only the most padded ones fit me a little bit, although if I move my arms people can see my nipple. I'm an AA so B cups are hard to fit. I love that collection, I couldn't get out of the shop although I wasn't enable to buy any.

since the bf cannot buy me proper lingerie, he bought me this set with panties and... a jacket. Well, he was sweet but that is the most awful thing I ever had to wear, I cannot feel sexy at all inside of that lol

[crinoline]

V- I loove Intimissimi! I wear their "1" size (AA-full A, depending on structure of bra)

yay! fall clothing!!
For sexy in the colder months, I love a sweaterdress with tights and boots. Especially ones with an open back because yay! we don't need a bra! And speaking of open back, check out this sexy but prim sweater
To create fullness on the top, I love a cropped swing jacket. Also, a structured jacket is always a great way to get the shape you want.

strongirl- I have a serious jones for some thigh high socks! I love the idea of wearing them with a garter belt, or a camigarter!

[Vendetta]

Intimissimi has the most beautiful lingerie collection I've ever seen in my entire life now, for fall season. God how I wish I could wear that! They have this corset reminding a bartender costume which is soooooooo damn sexy. Auch! For the A-cups in here, you might want to take a look, some B's are small and will fit.

http://www.intimissimi.it/english/index.html

[ailurophile]

Haha....What did I tell ya?!?! I'll have to get me one of those crochet sweaters.

[karategrrl]

I have a couple that are crochet, so when it comes time to rachet up the seduction, I'll ditch the tee and bra and come out of the bathroom with my bare titties showing thru the crochet/lace. That's a guaranteed fuck-fest!

Loved your post. You dress hot and it sounds like you and the bf have a rockin' sex life to boot!

PS: I wish it were that easy to get my man to attack me!

[strongirl]

"Strongirl must have something for us. " Ha, that is too funny! I don't think of myself as a "clothes hound" at all but in fact I have given this issue (how to dress sexy during winter) a fair amount of thought.

My #1 excellent new purchase for staying warm while looking hot is a hoodie sweatshirt that is cut low (ends just below my tits) in front with no zipper or buttons. It originally had a satin ribbon woven between the two sides but I took that out, so now it just a very lowcut V. You can't see my nips but plenty of breast curve (where cleavage would be if I had any) is visible. My bf LOVES this top and it is soft, warm and cozy, altho a bit breezy in front. Home use only.

You know what I love? Those cotton thigh highs that are becoming more popular - that FreePeople site that Crinoline posted has a lot of that look. They are so sexy and so warm! With a really short skirt, a pair of those pulled just past my knees, some cute boots, layers on top (like a clingy, sexy sweater with a jacket over it), and a warm hat...I do various combo's of this for both at home and out. You can also wear a garter belt with them - I like to do it with the garters showing. Totally hot. And warm.

I love those little cropped sweaters and jackets too - you know, the ones that barely come down to your ribcage. I generally wear them over a soft, clingy layer, like a long sleeve tissue-tee. I have a couple that are crochet, so when it comes time to rachet up the seduction, I'll ditch the tee and bra and come out of the bathroom with my bare titties showing thru the crochet/lace. That's a guaranteed fuck-fest!

Oh and on the tissue-tee thing - you know what i mean, right? those really thin clingy fabric tees, long or short sleeve - I like to wear those bra-less with a jacket or sweater open in the front. So I can play nip-peek-a-boo but with some layers for warmth.

Clingy sweater dresses are great, I just rarely dress up that much.

And sometimes my bf builds a big-ass fire in the fireplace and we let the place get toasty warm so I can hang out in skimpy lingerie and we can screw on the couch!

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

[ailurophile]

Thanx for all your encouragement. I'll let you know what happens this weekend.

That is frustrating for me, too. That's why I love summer! Hey, any advice from anyone out there in petite ta-ta land about how to look sexy in winter clothes??? Less coverage usually equals sexiness, but I'm one of those "always cold" people. It's super-frustrating to try and dress cute for a date with hubby or a night out, and usually I end up giving up and pulling on a sweater over my cute top and wondering what the point was of wearing the cute top in the first place.

I'm with you karategrrl. I'm always cold too... but I am also tall and have long arms, so to get sweaters to fit my arms, I have to buy larger. I guess that's how I got used to big clothes, as I love big huge sweatshirts too but it just is not sexy. So yes, please, we need advice to help us look cute and sexy this winter. Strongirl must have something for us.

[karategrrl]

And waaaaaay healthier than bitching and moaning about what we ain't got.

True dat!

Now I'm frowning because it's fall is upon us here and I can't wear such skimpy stuff or I'll freeze.

That is frustrating for me, too. That's why I love summer! Hey, any advice from anyone out there in petite ta-ta land about how to look sexy in winter clothes??? Less coverage usually equals sexiness, but I'm one of those "always cold" people. It's super-frustrating to try and dress cute for a date with hubby or a night out, and usually I end up giving up and pulling on a sweater over my cute top and wondering what the point was of wearing the cute top in the first place.

[strongirl]

Boy this site sure was quiet for a few days..and I was picturing all of you playing "dress up Barbie" with your hot sexy bodies and cute little tata's, prancing around, getting yourselves turned on, then putting on a show for your sig. others or hey, total strangers! Fun stuff! And waaaaaay healthier than bitching and moaning about what we ain't got.

I'm not much of a shopper (no patience, no money) but all those clothes are super-cute and the models' body types are very much like mine (except I'd like to think my muscles are a bit more "cut", lol). I have accumulated a lot of fun clothes over the years and believe me, these styles are so much sexier than covering up with "armor" aka padded bra's!

Now I'm frowning because it's fall is upon us here and I can't wear such skimpy stuff or I'll freeze.

Ailurophile, ""Most guys don't care about size. It's the embarrassment on her face that shows." That was a very insighful comment! I truly believe that if we show playfulness and confidence in our bodies, that is a much bigger turn-on for guys (and gals) than an extra cup size or sizes. Good for you for having the ovaries to start flaunting your sexy little assets!