[pollystyrene]

Thanks for admitting to #1, mouse. I stopped subscribing to Bitch a couple years ago. I appreciate their intentions, but it was starting to get too politicized for me....this was right around the time Bust was starting to go downhill a little too, and now they're just inconsistent.

I occasionally pick up an issue of Bitch at Borders or whatever to flip through. I actually bought the current issue and was irritated to see that they had criticized Hamell on Trial in the previous issue. I'm not sure exactly what the context was, but I think he made some comment about Ann Coulter, specifically about her genitalia and they ripped into him for using a woman's genitalia against her, and he was now the King of Misogynists for it. There were two letters, one supporting their stance on it and one saying "get a grip, Hamell's not a misogynist, Ann Coulter in and of herself is way worse than anything Hamell said about her."

They've gotten to the point of living up to the old joke, "How do you offend a feminist? That's not funny."

P.S. I mailed your book on Friday- sorry it took so long!

[mouse]

#1: i have come to the realization that i fucking hate bitch magazine. i can't stand them anymore. and it makes me even angrier now that bust is going to shit that there's nothing REAL that i actually relate to to read. bitch just seems to be grasping at straws for things to get self-righteously pissed off about instead of actually making any decent commentary on real lives of women. i feel like they're scouring the media for the tiniest thing that they could blow into a huge deal just so they have fucking content for their magazine.


#2: i don't think i like my best friend anymore. i mean, i just feel benign and indifferent towards her. she's changed so much since she moved away from the area we grew up in a year ago, and while all of her changes have been to her benefit, it's altered her personality so much that i don't feel like i can relate to her anymore. i don't get her crazy awesome vibe anymore, and it makes me so selfishly sad. worse still, the person she's turned into reminds me most of my first boyfriend--limiting, void of emotion--who she viciously hated.

#3: i feel really guilty about not going into the okayers thread anymore. i don't have time to go on the internet at work, and i don't have time to catch up when i'm home. but i feel guilty nonetheless.

*sigh*

[ananke]

Gingerkitty - I had that happen once. I was freaked out for days and changed the colours of my wedding because of it.

My secret - all women's deoderants make me smell like wet laundry.

[culturehandy]

I've done something rather horrible. I dare not write it, but I acknowledge it.

[freckleface7]

confession:
I don't understand the appeal of nascar and all the hoopla that surrounds it.
cars race around and around a track for What purpose again exactly?
coudn't you break it down scientifically according to how car engines and speeds are calibrated, x the # of laps and then ./.' by the total # of racers involved and save everyone the trouble of it ?

[culturehandy]

I think broadway is cheesey and tacky. I can't stand it.

[greenbean]

confession: Now that I no longer live in San Francisco I can see how fuckin annoying and self-righteous bay dwellers are.

Yo, San Francisco! Stop trying to shock people by how freakin liberal you are!! Its isnt helping the progressive movement!!! Especially when you block traffic and get in peoples' faces about stuff. Dont you see the immigrant riding the bus to his shitty dishwashing job an hour from home, and now he might get fired from being late?!? Dont you see the single mom with the crying baby who needs to be changed and now she has to walk 10 blocks home? ugg. get over your faux-hippie faux-anarchist selves and stay on the freakin sidewalk!

[ginger_kitty]

I am falling in love.

Yay, for falling love. Congrats.

I confess, I had a really graphic disturbing dream last night, and woke up thinking I must be insane. It was sick and violent, that I am affraid to share the details of it with anyone.

[culturehandy]

Edie, sometimes I love being a bitch to other people. just because.

I am falling in love.

[London Escorts]

I want to change my degree but I can't tell my mum because although she will be supported, deep down I know she will be disappointed because it is not a "traditional" subject.

You have to do what your heart tells you and if it is the best for you maybe your mother will understand. She’s your mother, after all.

[edie52]

I get a sick pleasure out of being a little bit rude to people in public... not all the time, it depends on my mood. It's usually when I'm in a rush and people are standing on both sides of the escalator, or walking slowly on the street. Or those who invade my personal space, or try to jump in front of me in line. I was meek for so long and now I am RUTHLESS!

[flanker_ji]

Yay, doodle!

I confess that I'm afraid I won't be ready for my speech presentation tomorrow morning. Every second I Bust makes it that much more true...

[doodlebug]

Confession: I am so fucking ecstatic to be alive that I feel like screaming it through a megaphone from the top of City Hall.

[ginger_kitty]

I confess, one of my favorite coworkers had a job interview for a great new job, and although I am really happy for him, I was bummed to think of him not being at work anymore.

I feel a little bad for mocking another coworker for turning a bit metro. He got a promotion, and since then he is been going to get manicures and started wearing gel in his hair. It's really odd /c he used to be kind of sporty guy, but I shouldn't make fun of him.

[erinjane]

I confess: my favourite show right now is "North of 60". I tape the re-runs on Showcase everyday and watch them when I get home from work. I also confess, even though I've seen the episode at least 3 times, I cried like a baby today because they found Hannah's body.

[zoya]

aww, thanks sybarite. new guy knows that I'm still in touch with exboy. I've told him that we talk now and then. he just doesn't realize that we're in the same city anymore (our moves were at different times and had nothing to do with one another - in fact, exboy didn't even know I was here until I'd been around a couple of months)- there was really no reason to tell new guy this, since he doesn't live in the same state, and I travel so much, I'm never around anyway. And I don't see exboy all that much - we talk on the phone now and then but don't hang out on a regular basis or anything..

I think that the biggest part of me not answering the phone was actually for exboy. exboy doesn't know about me and anyone. I just wasn't ready to tell him, since things are still in "getting to know you" mode with new guy, and I didn't really want exboy to find out that way. I'd rather not tell him about me and anyone until things are more solidified.

It's interesting, I think that perhaps my feeling of ick is really indicative of me falling back a little into one of the little things that was so present in exboy and my relationship: secrets, keeping things from one another, covering up. So I suppose it's kinda showing me that it's good I am not there, and what I don't want any more. Things have been really nice and easy with new guy and I just don't want to inject any of that kind of crap in there, I only want to be honest and go down a positive path from the start. So it jolted me when I just did it off the cuff. well, I guess it's a learning experience and I'll just start over with myself! thanks!

[sybarite]

Zoya, dude, don't be so hard on yourself. I think you did the right thing; there's no point in having a conversation with the new guy that might potentially worry him unnecessarily. Meeting with the ex makes sense to you and if anything it sounds like you gained further clarity from it--which puts you in a better place with the new guy.

You can always tell new guy about ex-man-now-friend the next time you two meet up, and frame it in all honesty as a central friendship. Feel better!

[zoya]

i went to have a drink with my ex tonight.

just as I was leaving, new guy interest called. twice. I pretended my phone was off.
I then called him back and told him I was going for drinks with my girlfriends and that they'd just gotten there.

I didn't lie because I thought anything was going to happen between me and exboy.
- we were having a drink to catch up (because we are still in touch, and friends - not bosom buddies, but after some long hard work, we are friends)
and to talk about what was going on in our lives.
things are still up in the air with new guy interest and I didn't feel comfortable telling him I was having a drink with my ex.
I guess i could have just said "I'm having a drink with a friend"
I just felt weird and didn't know what to say.
so I lied.
I feel like shit and I don't know if I should come clean.

and as far as exboy and my drink / conversation, it really served to solidify for me that we are now in two totally different places as human beings and just not the right people for one another. So that's good. Bittersweet, but really good. I didn't tell him that, but it's what it did for me. So that's good.

but I still feel like shit for lying, I don't ever want to lie to someone I like. Terrible way to start things out.
But I didn't know what to do and it just came out.

again, I feel like shit.

[missladyj]

As a kid I totally had the hots for Race Banion from Johnny Quest

[zoya]

you know, I honestly don't think I ever masturbated to any picture, mental or otherwise, when I was a teen. It just felt so good that it didn't even occur to focus on someone to get me going..

That said, I will admit that my first star crush was on - and I shit you not - Dirk Benedict as Starbuck on the original Battlestar Galactica, when I was a VERY wee lass... (this was even pre-discovery of masterbatory delights) eek!

I now masturbate to pictures of a certain guy that I have saved and leave open on my desktop way too often to get any work done, cause I keep looking at them. mmmmmmmm. (and I think that culturehandy might be able to read between the lines on that one... hahahaha)