[lilacwine13]

I slept with a stuffed animal until I was 19 too. It was a cow I got when I was six, and it's in my closet. If I could get away with it, I would probably still sleep with it.

Buttons remind me of my grandma, who had several jars of them in her house. I used to play with them and still wonder what happened to them.

If I could get away with it, I would drink a lot more too.

I want to try cocaine and a host of other drugs.


...and that's enough for me today.

[pollystyrene]

I still sleep with a bear. And I'm not ashamed of it.

[venetia]

OMFG Doodlebug my partner had that same phobia as a child and struggled hard to overcme it. He once saw a whole jar of buttons and freaked out bigtime.

[pepper]

DOODLEBUG!!!

i love buttons. especially ones made out of shell, i have a collection of them. i have the opposite of your phobia.

i pretend to be nicer than i really am.

[sixelacat]

I didn't get a cat until I was 27 because I was secretly afraid I would be cruel to it. I have never harmed an animal but every time I looked at kittens to adopt I had nightmares for weeks that I beat them with a baseball bat. Vivid, terrifying nightmares because in them I didn't feel anger or any emotion at all.

When I woke up I would cry.

I've never told anyone.

[bunnyb]

I still sleep with a teddy, a tweetie-pie, unless I'm in bed with the boy and I'm cuddling him.

baby steps ... this is becoming easier ... confessions prompted by others and jumping on the bandwagon helps.

I can't talk about blood or veins or hearts pumping because then I feel the blood flowing through my fingers and I begin to pulsate; it's doing it now and I'll need to stop typing and hold them to make them stop.

My suicide attempt was and always will be the biggest mistake of my life, and the one that causes the most pain.

missladyj, there's a dream thread in media_whores.

[culturehandy]

Ginger I also slept with a bear until I was around 20. Her name is Green Bear, and I couldn't sleep without knowing where it was. (I don't remember my exact age).

I drool tons when I sleep.

I love looking at my vagina in the mirror, I thinks it is the greatest.

[loli]

I still sleep with a special pillow.
I ignore the smell of weed when I visit client's homes and am supposed to be looking out for these things.
I am scared that my friends are all going to have children and I will never see them again.

[ginger_kitty]

In high school I used to used to lie a lot. I actually told people I had sex w/ several guys just so I wouldn't feel pressure to lose my virginity. No matter how crazy the lies got I never cracked and confessed. No one ever knew I was lieing. Until now my husband is the only person who knows and when I confessed all of the juicy details to him, he was shocked and horrified.

I sometimes wonder if my husband would be mad if I wanted a girlfriend on the side.

I slept with a teddy bear until I 19.

[missladyj]

I read my sister's diary and never told her. I never forgot the line about Barry with his shit brown eyes

I pick my nose in the car

I am afraid of the dark and slept with a nightlight unitl I was 10

I can't walk into a bathroom if the lights are not on first,if the lights are not on I will stick my hand in to find the lights, if the light isn't near the door, I freak the fuck out.

ever since I had the dream that I was facing the devil with a priest behind me and his hands covering my eyes saying mary full of grace over and over then just saying marymarymarymarymary, I have had to go to sleep with the hall light on.

the dream was all the stranger because I am jewish maybe we need a thread about dreams?

[smurfin]

I dislike my bf's brother. I dislike my bf's best friend. He doesn't know this.



I am secretly scared because I feel my parents like my sister much more than me.

I am scared because I think they're right.

[mornington]

i am turning into my mother. This scares me, because I do not want to live my mother's life so far.

[roseviolet]

((((((((CrasyOldCatLady)))))))))) Me too. It's so scary being in such a new place. I don't even know how to begin to make friends. It's just been too long.

[la_sirena]

I was arrested for shoplifting when I was 16. My parents are the only other people who know.

whew!

[doodlebug]

I have this inexplicable phobia where ordinary buttons freak me out and give me "cold fingers" down my spine. I've had it since I was a little kid; it's never gone away. I don't like them. I don't own any clothes with them, except my jeans and my blazer, and it only works for me because the jeans buttons aren't sewn, and the jacket buttons are covered - although I often feel suspicious about the latter ones. (I don't mind other people wearing them, but not me.) I can't sleep on/in button-down bedding, and I can't tolerate curtains with buttoned tabs. The kind of buttons with the thread holes that show on the front are the worst for me. I avoid even touching them. And I especially hate buttons when they are wet. I don't even like saying, writing, or reading the word "button," except in an electronics context. (I am even creeping myself out re-reading this post.) I don't know what it is. It's possibly the weirdest, most insane phobia on the planet. And yes, this is absolutely true.

Thanks, aquagirl. Validation DOES help!

[crazyoldcatlady]

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[voodoo_princess]

I think very poorly of myself and think that I am very very unattractive. So much so that I avoid social interaction with "real" people because it makes me sad to see "pretty" people and feel the way I do about myself. I guess I am embarassed of myself. It took several attempts for me to have the courage to post the pic of my new haircut on here and I still go back and compare myself to pics I've seen of (other) beautiful BUSTIES. I don't even know how to be pretty, even though I have an idea of what pretty is to me.

[miss_jane]

For over half the time I was with my ex, I was in love with the person I am with now.

I believe I will spend the rest of my life with him. This is a secret because if I tell any of my friends they will take the piss, call me old fashioned, and tease me about being "anti-feminist".

These friends that i speak of are from my high school. I can't be bothered being friends with them any more but feel too guilty to take them out of my myspace top 8. I wish that I was still friends with most of them. 3 at the most. Possibly only 2.

[pixiedust]

I peed in the hallway of a new hotel. I was carrying my puppy in one hand, baby in the other, dragging my luggage, and the stupid door key wouldn't work! (where was my husband you might ask? There is a reason I am divorced from him)

I know I should be the better/bigger person in all of life's trials...but there are times I would rather act just as childish and stupid even though I know it won't bring the desired results.

Mandi..I know what you mean...I can think of a dozen things I want to say, but I know there are still lurkers.....

[freckleface2727]

mando-
I had already realised that and will echo that there are things I just won't put out there due to the crazies I've known before.

just now finding out that there is a formal military ball for my mr's unit, and it wasn't him that told me about it, making me wonder if he hasn't told me bc he is ashamed or embarrassed of me, bc he is quiet and low key and I am friendly & outgoing and I know it sometimes bothers him bc he's much more the blend in w/ the scenery type.
he also once joked that he only married me so he didn't have to talk anymore, which secretly hurt me deeply like he was saying I talk too much, and all this is proof?