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raskel
post Apr 28 2006, 02:33 PM
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dear hair,

you're looking pretty sassy today. go you.

-raskel.
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freckleface2727
post Apr 28 2006, 10:32 AM
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self-
great boob day!
great hair day & ass day too!
see what a little fasting and not eating so many poptarts can do for you?
learn, you're not So old quite yet.
hugs good lookin & I'll be back to check you out later~
me

M-
thanks for calling.
am glad you did, and totally understand your need for space right after.
glad we talked as openly as we did too, bc w/our shared age concieving again isn't a given & a lot of well meaning people don't get that.
still here for you and not feeling as guilty as before,
F

Girl-Child-
12? 1 2 ?? are you Sure??!
started reading a book on raising a strong-willed child last night bc baby,if Ever, it's YOU.
hope it will help me parent you in the ways You uniquely need.

am thinking of including some of the poetry I wrote for you in the art card I bought you, but don't want you to think it's hokey, but also want you to see where your love of writing really stems from. watching you that day at the shore and outlined in the shadow of the skyline I was just so blown away at the beauty of who you really are. don't think I stop often enough to really see that and it hurts our relationship.
please know I am trying.
loving you ever & always,
mama


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bohemiax
post Apr 27 2006, 10:18 PM
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From: Texas


Dear S,

Well it's been almost a week since we've talked. I'm not crying on the floor, I'm not suicidal, I'm not anything. I miss you. I miss your voice. In the past week I have survived a drastic medicine change, found a new "friend," gone to school, and found out I was co-dependent and took active steps to deal with it and fix the problem. I have started a 12-step program. I am reading books on codependency. I have found a boy that likes me - not just for my body, but for who I am in reality. I do miss you, greatly, but I know I will survive without you. I detaching with love. I still and will always care about you and love you.

Love,
J
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loli
post Apr 27 2006, 08:29 PM
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Dear X,
So I got home for my first free evening in a long time. I pick up the ringing phone and there you are, telling me that something is really wrong with Mr. Loli's dad.
Really wrong?!? Oh, shit. Mr. Loli's mom just told us that her cancer is back, so this does not sound good.
I ask you what is wrong.
You pause, repeat yourself, then proceed to spit venom into my ear about how angry you are at Mr. Loli and his dad. Apparently, Mr. Loli's dad posted your email address on an obscure geneology website.
Now, I KNOW that you are paranoid. The sign by your front door that says "Do not ring my bell if I don't know you. I am serious. Not responsible." says it all. The post office box for your mail says more. The hours of "they are out to get me" conversations we have had hammer this home. The constant weed that you have smoked every day since age 13(40-odd years ago) may be the culprit.
Whatever the reason, I am pissed at you for:
A) scaring me.
B) thinking that this is a big deal.
C) failing to understand that Mr. Loli's dad is quietly frightened about losing his wife and is trying to reach out to you.
D) making everything about you over and over and over again.
E) turning my evening into a damage control session.
F)calling incessantly while Mr. Loli is on the phone with his dad and terminally ill mother right now.
Don't even think about having a civil conversation with me anytime soon. I deal with this shit all day at work. I am done with you, in-law family or not.
Sincerely,
Loli

PS: That apology message you left for me just now regarding your intensity still annoyed me.
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bohemiax
post Apr 27 2006, 05:09 PM
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Dear R,

Perhaps I'm writing this here with the hope that perchance you'll see it. I don't know how I feel about you...still. I know I enjoy your company, I enjoy the cuddling, but it's not you I want in my heart - it's him. You are helping me get over him, but I'm still not all the way there yet. I haven't talked to him in days and don't know if I ever will again. That's frightening. I don't like you spending the night, even if we sleep in separate beds. You asked me if I was ashamed of you, and I said yes and then I said I was kidding, but I really meant yes. You're too young for me. It'd be like dating my brother (who isn't really my brother but is more like a brother than anyone I've ever met). He's your age. You guys have the same interests. I want a man. Not a boy. You still order off the kids menu. I only order off the kids menu because their portions are better for me health wise. We can't have sex because of your religous convictions, but it's causing you physical pain. You won't masturbate to get the backlog of cum out - you just say you'll deal with the pain. I think that's stupid. I think sex and masturbation are wonderful and people should do it all the time. You won't let me touch your cock. Heaven forbid I try to grind my pelvis into you. It's like we have to talk about "how far we take it" every other day. I keep you on your toes because I don't know how I feel about you. My mother's words repeat in my mind everytime we're in public. Ben's words replay in my mind everytime we're together. I don't know if I like you or not.

Confused,
J

((((rantrave))))
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rantrave88
post Apr 27 2006, 03:54 PM
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dear god,
oh, fuck.
please help me do ok.

me
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culturehandy
post Apr 27 2006, 12:56 PM
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Dear Self,

Congratulations on your body pericing, it looks fantastic, only now you want more more more! What can you pierce without looking unprofessional? Well how about the other?

Love

me.

Dear man,

WTF? That's all I can say, I am not too sure what I should be doing with you anymore. You have no idea what is going through my mind, and I would love to tell you, but, alas, I am afraid. Yup me of all people, scared fucking shitless. Why? Because I am afraiding of losing everything, sheesh, I don't know what to do. I would like to know if you feel the same way, and I think that a big part of that has to do with the fact that I want you to feel the same, but you probably do not. see! Catch 22 for me. boo.

me.


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crazyoldcatlady
post Apr 27 2006, 12:27 PM
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Dear Last-Formal-Class-Ever;

END ALREADY. GAH!

Dear Tonight,
I want to have fun, I deserve to have fun, it will be fun, right? Please don't let the shit hit the fan, like my gut is telling me it will.

Dear Self,
Why are you procrastinating on the VIP (very important paperwork). This is your LIVELYHOOD. This is your RESPONSIBILTY. You don't get to hide behind "Oh, I'm just a student" anymore.
Work through the denial, already. Christ.

Dear Lady who just walked into Caribou Coffee-
Unless you're fucking BLIND don't bring your fucking MUTT into a place where i am EATING. It's NOT CUTE. IT's FOUL.
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pixiedust
post Apr 27 2006, 12:15 PM
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Dear God,
I know we need the rain. And I am not opposed to some, but if it at all possible could it not rain between the hours of 2 and 7 Saturday? At least in the little patch of land known as Muskogee? And thanks for keeping the old lady going for a little while longer. And thanks for everythign else starting to fall into place.

Pixiedust


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missdaisy
post Apr 27 2006, 09:29 AM
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Dear fantasy man,
Yes I love you as my fantasy but reality is you are married and we shared some forbidden passion but thats it. Now leave me alone. you will never leave your wife and I am in love with someone else, please just go away and if IF I do call please dont answer or say you love or want a future with me because it will never ever work. Now go away!!
There could never be any trust between either of us.
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freckleface2727
post Apr 27 2006, 05:28 AM
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M,
I am so sorry about the loss of the baby(ies?).

tried to call last night but your cell says it's not in service right now, am going to track down your mr & find out why.
I hate that you are so far away & I can't Really be here for you in this right now. not the way I think you probably need.

...something I won't tell you but will forever carry the guilt of in my heart... the last few days, have been really really Meaning to call you, to tell you ' be careful! stop and just WAIT' bc I felt strongly you were going to miscarry. but how do you say that to someone?
actually.. I think I could say that to you w/out you thinking I was crazy or wishing you ill will bc you know how I am and we get each other.
makes my guilt all the more deep bc I didn't make the time to do it.
sigh
I am sorry.

hurting for and with you,
F


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raskel
post Apr 27 2006, 01:35 AM
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Dear Mr. Raskel's dad,

Thank you for trying to get me a new job. I hope you can work it out. I promise you I am a hard worker. You won't be a disappointed boss.

-Raskel.
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lucizoe
post Apr 26 2006, 08:26 PM
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dear self,

get it together, mmmkay?

love,
me
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culturehandy
post Apr 26 2006, 07:32 PM
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Dear everyone,

you rock. Tell yourself this everyday.

from

the equally rockin' chichita that is me!


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princess_dander
post Apr 26 2006, 04:36 PM
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Dear you,

Please, please I beg of you, get the fuck over yourself. Please.

Thanks,
PD


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lilacwine13
post Apr 26 2006, 04:32 PM
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Dear universe,
Do you think you could stop making my world turn upside down so often? I'd really like a chance to get my mental health up to speed before the next crisis comes up.

Dear AZ Guy,
We both agree this is for the best. We both know this is what needs to done right now, that neither one of us wants this level of commitment and it would be healthier for us to be apart.

So why do I feel like crying? Why do I feel so hurt when I knew a long time ago that we needed to slow down and we were trying to beat some extremely high odds? I just want to cry, drink, and watch TV, even though I know I have to work, look for a new job, look into grad schools, study, and get better at managing this depression.

I should have left you up in Alaska.
--me


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obelix
post Apr 26 2006, 12:43 PM
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CJ-
I'm lying, a little. I know we can never be serious, that much is true. But I want to be your girlfriend; I want us to announce it to the entire town; I want you to hold my hand when we're all out on Fridays. I want us to pretend, I guess. We could ignore the future and just go ahead and fall in love with each other. Yeah, we'll get hurt in a little while, but it would be so much fun until then.

Because I'm doing it again. I kill relationships before they start. Before we get serious, I point out why it wouldn't work in the long run. I force the choice of "Fuck-buddy or Nothing", when that is the LAST thing I want to do.

So now you're out of town for a week. Who knows, maybe I'll keep flirting with L, loudly enough to drown out my conscience. Then you'll get back and we'll end up as fuckbuddies, and just like it was with R, I'll feel like you're ashamed of me in public- because we've agreed that we can't act like a couple.

What would happen if I told you this stuff?
-D
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lucizoe
post Apr 26 2006, 06:31 AM
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dear NYC,

I lurve you.

luci
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rantrave88
post Apr 25 2006, 09:45 PM
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dear super fucking awesome universe,
I don't feel like you're super fucking awesome, but I don't wanna be mad at you. being mad's not fun. I can't decide whether or not to go home. really. I have too much shit in here.
i gotta find a way to finish work, pack, and make money this summer.
I have no attention span, so it will be tough, but I can be a good girl. I promise. I can be a good daughter, and friend, and girl girl if i want to. I know i've been given many chances and many days to do this, but it hasn't been working. Please, just find somebody to love me, like that, fucking soon man.

I'm tired and restless and don't know how to handle myself.
I'm gonna make it, somehow, with difficulty, disappointing a hell of a lot of people along the way, because I just can't get it together. I want to make stuff without being in my head the whole time. That's what I fucking want. And I don't want to hate the crap that comes out so much. Just give me some kind of hope in the next couple days, hope that i'll do something worthwhile.

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formerlycl
post Apr 25 2006, 06:55 PM
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Dear baby,

Holy crap, we're moving maybe soon, I'm not sure, I'm broke I can hardly make ends meet.However, your arrival is so exciting I cannot stand it!

formerlycl

Dear Doula,

Thanks for being amazing, I know you'll do a great job.

fcl

Dear baby's father,

Your a freaky ass fuck! but I don't even care anymore.If I would have gone to a sperm bank that would have been better.

You've been nothing but crazy, through out this pregnancy.However, it's alright now the baby is here I have forgotten.You can go on being you and hopefully will not do too much more damage.

It would be nice if you weren't crazy though, oh well, at least I have creative control.I love not caring about you anymore.I'll try not to care as you slowely slip into insanity and distortion.You'll think I used you for this after giving you far too many chances.I am too good for you, you forced me into that position by fucking your life up and mine temporarily.

fcl

Dear Me,

Wow you kick but..

fcl

Dear old me,

It took a while but you've been shed.

fcl

Dear birthpartner and friend's,

Thank you so much for having faith in me, I'm really lucky.It makes not having a partner amazing, it seems like a good choice, I am more than lucky.

fcl

Dear old disfunctional friend's,

Nah Nah Nah nah nah, I don't care anymore! Say what you want.The old me made you comfortable but the new me thinks your a waste of my time.

fcl
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