[mouse]

confession: i'm jealous of the busties who have outside-the-lounge phone friendships. i imagine them having long involved and wonderful conversations like i imagined the popular girls having when i was in middle school.

confession: i know that if i was suddenly called by these busties of whom i am jealous, i wouldn't know what to say, and it would just be awkward silence.

[freckleface7]

confession: I am most severely, unjokingly procrastinating today and my clock is {hopefully} winding down.

[freckleface7]

oh rudderless that just BITES!!
it's like 'up the stress & see who breaks 1st' and do they ever stop to consider the Families???

you know you & your beeps totally have my support, now & Always, but esp Now.
(((((rudderless & beeps))))))))

yah for tommynomad's return! Hail Hail ~ !

confession # 1: it's not even 0800 and I'm already planning & anticipating lunch. I'm a-takin' myself to the DQ drive thru for chicken strips, fries and a chocolate ice cream/m & m blizzard- Mmmmmmmmm !

confession # 2 : I am tired of being lonely w/out the mr here.

[tommynomad]

Hello again, BUSTies (I was so excited to be back last time I forgot to say Hiyooo)!

Freckle, I understand about the robe. If I had one of those I'd call in sick, turn up the FGTH, and spend the whole day swishing out.

*crosses fingers for rudderlesschild's hubby, whom I don't know but cops-to-be partnered with BUSTies must be good cops-to-be*

Zoya, slow is good. Calm is good. Changing goals are a sign of maturity, I think.

[freckleface7]

rudder: I have my fingers & toes crossed for your 2 beeps success! is it like a pass/fail or will he have to wait for the results to find out ?
please eat something!!

confession: I was all set & comitted to ordering online tonight.. not necc that robe (didn't like some of the fabric patterns) but some sort of kimono-esque type garment.. something in bright colors and big & blousey.. and maud dernit- I can't find anything to buy !
the mr's return is who knows when now and I was feeling sorry enough for myself for retail therapy.
I am one P-O'd Mama right now.

[lilacwine13]

Oooh, that's pretty, freckle.

Confession: I said too much and I feel guilty about it. I've got to learn to keep my mouth shut and what is confidential.

[freckleface7]

this is the robe I am contemplating ordering... but it's no mui mui


http://acaciacatalog.com/pop_alternate_vie...p;pif=50964.jpg

(my shrink says I should go ahead & do it too- says a little indulgence is good for the soul )

[zoya]

confession - I've just been offered the opportunity to have a HUGE position with a company that puts together projects like the ones I work on. Like I'd never be in debt again big. Like I'd be one of the main people at the company big.

But I'm happier here making less money than I've made in years, struggling sometimes, but in a stable place, with stable friends, and a simple life.

I don't want it complicated anymore. I don't want things to be so fast anymore. I like it simple and stable.

I think I might turn it down if they won't meet me halfway and do it on my terms, even though it's everything I said I was working towards.

that kinda scares the shit out of me.

[tommynomad]

Yay, Doodle!

confession: I revel in my sloth when I could accomplish so much more.

confession 2: I am smug.

[missladyj]

thanks for the pillow freck! I need it. for lots of reasons.
buy yourself something nice and happy b-day in advance

hurrah for love! hurrah for Doodle!

[erinjane]

Yay doodle! I love reading your posts about mr. jamhost in the okayer thread.

[freckleface7]

ditto on that: doodle, your post made my heart smile.

enjoy the thrill ride sweetie.

[culturehandy]

Doodle, I'm so excited and happy for you!

[doodlebug]

confession: I'm falling in love, and, even though I've been in love before, this is like nothing I've ever known in my life.

[freckleface7]

confession: I am totally jonsing for presents right now. for myself.
my birthday is more than 7 weeks off yet, but I've gotten several fantastic new catelogs in the mail and feel like a kid in a candy shop thinking ' ohhhhh ! which one do I choose?!' right now it's a close tie between a robe pieced together of vintage silk kimono or an organic cotton / bamboo long sleeved shirt w/ blue ombre dye that says
' know peace.' it's really ridiculous how selfish & indulgent I am feeling lately, made all the worse by the mr telling me to Go Ahead if I like it bc he knows I've had a rough time, even though we really can't afford my "shopping habit" right now. sooooo tempting not to go for the diamond ring I am lusting for.. BAD FRECKLE!

confession: the whole house is a wreck, the mr's return could near be calculated in hours now, and I am busting and reading and doing everything But what I should be to prepare.

stargazer: I like Refugee better.

[zoya]

confession: stargazer has gotten that Tom Petty song stuck in my head, too. damn it!

[stargazer]

confession: i'm glad i feel comfortable traveling on my own and just doing things on my own in general. i've seen people blame others because they are not willing to take the risk to put themselves out there. or, they just don't try new things at all. I'm glad I enjoy the free fall.

confession: damn. now i got tom petty's free falling in my head.

[freckleface7]

if I have to sit in another meeting where nothing gets done but people talking about what they think other people need I will have to punch somebody in the neck. I want a fucking agenda. I want the person who is supposed to be in charge to take control of the discussion. I don't want to tell you how to do your fucking job but I will if you suck at it.
Instead of telling people what they should need and epsousing your personal educational philosophy and wasting my precious time why dont we just ASK PEOPLE WHAT THEY NEED.
fuck!
at least I am not the only person on the committe who feels this way.
If I have to take over and impose my will, so be it.
Fucking dumbasses!

misslady: sometimes taking charge, even when it's not necc your place, can be the smartest career move you can make; it shows Leadership.

== tosses you a pillow to place under your head in case you start beating it against the table=
( or you can always use it for other means.. ! )

[thirtiesgirl]

Gah. I am feeling so lonely and disconnected right now, I can tell I'm heading towards a meltdown later this week. I'm not going to be able to see the LD guy this month due to his DUI and I just started missing him something awful. I'm just beginning to realize how used to having a regular connection with him I was. Not that we don't still talk on the phone and e-mail, but I really needed a little real time contact this month. And the fact that it's not going to happen is really making me feel desperate and lonely. I keep trying to remind myself that it's only temporary, but it's not working. Really not working. ...Pass the jack & coke, COCL.

[crazyoldcatlady]

confession: jack and coke is really, really taking the edge off right now. yay for unhealthy coping mechanisms! (and by unhealthy, i'm referring to the diet coke, which i've forsworn. kind of.)