[bklynhermit]

that's similar to how i felt when i first had penetrative sex with a guy.

i was just like, that's IT?

it wasn't painful, or earth-shattering. just weird and akward.

especially since i'd been 'fooling around' for ages before that. it was just like, meh.

[sweetn_low]

ok...i *lost my virginity* last thursday nite (and by that i mean penetrative sex involving a penis). and it was fun and enjoyable. it did hurt alittle trying to get past the fleshy outter lips, but now i've figured out how to avoid that. other than that...it was fun, like i said. no fireworks though, no orgasims (i didn't expect any). no big deal.

i almost feel cheated that i didn't bleed all over the bed or suffer the pain of the loss, b/c i was so prepared for all that shit to happen. ok...i *almost* feel cheated. lol. i'm glad of course that i find it comfortable and enjoyable. but i don't feel any different about myself or anything else. why is sex built up so much and carry a stigma? it's just natural...not like the end all be all of existance fun but it's just...nice, i guess.

i wasn't really expecting this...