[culturehandy]

I'm afraid of telling him, as I don't want to lose him. I don't want to lose him because he have great sex.

I secretly want him to like me.

[ginger_kitty]

freckle, nothing wrong with buying yourself a nice gift. Don't worry about it.

confession: The other day a new coworker, told me his first impression of me was that I was bit dumb, and maybe a pothead. He laughed because he realized it really was not the case. And I acted like it didn't bother me. But it really offened me, and I couldn't stop trying to figure out what gave him that impression.

confession: The older my mother gets the crazier she gets.

confession: Thanksgiving was at our house this year and I totally ate up all the praise I received for the food and such. I had no idea how much I enjoy being complimented. It seriously went to my head.

[lilacwine13]

((((Culture)))))

Tes & Freckle, thank you for the kind words. He knows that deep down, I am an awesome person, but he's giving up hope that I am capable of becoming that awesome person on his time. It would take a huge effort on my part (and a couple of small miracles) to be what he wants me to be on his time, and I'm not sure if I could pull it off. Plus, it would be to please him, and that never works. A part of me wants to, just to spite him, but I know that won't be a good reason either.

AZ Guy is pretty cool, we both share a lot of the same interests and sense of humor, and we both understand each other, but at the same time he's a bit of a jerk and we disagree on things like childcare (and we aren't even ready to start thinking about reproducing) and where to live (he wants to stay in the desert, I'm thinking that 120+ degree summers are even worse than -20 below winters).

Confession: I haven't done any work since 11 this morning, and I hate my boss for spending more time training in a new employee than he did with the rest of us combined. If he would have spent that much time with the rest of us, this department would run so much better, we wouldn't have such a high turnover rate, and I might be able to actually do my job instead of mindless busy work. I also hate that this is what is consuming my thoughts.

[culturehandy]

I need to get a test done, and I'm scared of the outcome. It's not anything serious, but i'm still scared.

[freckleface7]

thank you so much tesao (!), and now I'm going to confess what I have thought for several years here...

I envy tesao's libido and connection w/ her mr hotbuns.

I adore my mr, and he is still mad for me like that, but me, meh, maybe the weight loss/muscle gain will help?

lilac: ditto what tes said.
if you have doubts, maybe it's your honest heart speaking to you.
(((((lilac)))))

[culturehandy]

I am considering getting a couple of men towork on a rotation so I can have sex frequently. The cop just doesn't provide often enough.

[tesao]

freckle: soooooooooo empowering!!! you deserve it, you are fabu!

lilacwine: i don't know AZ. that said, if you have doubts, he probably isn't. you are incredible, any boy should know it and be sure to try to erase those doubts. or at least talk to you about them!

confession: i hatehatehate doing all of "the necessary". i'd rather spend my time with mr. hotbuns in a more erotic fashion!

[freckleface7]

I ordered myself a small bottle of perfume for xmas;
I can't decide if that's pathetic or empowered ?

[lilacwine13]

I wish I could figure out if AZ Guy is worth it or not.


I like it when people laugh at my jokes. It makes me feel like they're on my side and they might not turn against me.

[sassygrrl]

I'm hating my boyfriend right now for being a pussy.

[edie52]

I was in a relationship for years in which we never said we loved each other (well, I said it a few times, but stopped because it wasn't being reciprocated... and I never addressed it).

[tesao]

i have a crush on someone i work with.

[.eilleen.]

My confession: I'm unemployed, have no health insurance, and have not been on my lexapro for over a month due to lack of said insurance. Looking for jobs to no avail (some BS about being "over-qualified"). Still trudging along though I know I will fall deeper if I don't get a job soon that has a decent medical program.

[erinjane]

Today I decided to stop using my birth control (because I've had a chronic yeastie beastie for ages that I want to get rid of and this is my last resort) and it's making me feel really depressed, like I'm really accepting that I'm single, and realizing how long I've been single, and all I want is to meet someone I like. The last time I went off birth control I ended up hooking up with someone a couple of weeks later...I'm half hoping that'll happen again.

Man, the day after I posted this I ended up meeting someone and we hooked up last night.

[LustfullyPink]

I have had it checked. Biopsy on Wednesday.

Culture, I know what it's like. I, sometimes, have a hard time having a belief system at all.

[culturehandy]

(((Lustfullypink))))

I am finding it more and more difficult to maintain my belief system because of my job. I am sick to fucking death of seeing women have children not because they want to, but because they see them as a dollar amount. I think it's fucking revolting and I see these women as bad women and bad people.

[coela]

(((Lustfullypink))) - Have you checked it? I have a lump too, but it was nothing.


Sometimes (or pretty often) I take pleasure in pushing people away. I think "oh,
they don't like me now, JUST AS WELL". I've always thought that integrity rules
over "being liked", but sometimes I could just chill the fuck out and accept
that people can have weird ideas on some subjects and still be OK. I mean, really.

[LustfullyPink]

I have a lump.

[zoya]

I don't tell people exactly how old I am until they know me better. I'm not weirded out by my age - on the contrary, I'm pretty damn happy with who I am at the age I'm at. ...I just feel like there is a certain pre-judgement based on the age I'm at that doesn't represent me at all. So I just don't tell people until they know me better.

[freckleface7]

sometimes I get really and totally obsessive about aquiring a particular item.
last year it was a super huge plain black silk kimono style robe;
currently it is a uber high thread count set of sheets in a pale but particular shade of blue.
I do not know why I get like this, but have been known to spend literally hours at a time in something akin to a trance researching it online, only to still usually end up not finding exactly what I want (or in the case of the sheets, waiting a day too long to order and then missing out).

I confess that I miss my puppy as much as I miss the mr and still feel like a little girl who needs her mama in my loss. or the mr. I need him to come home and mourn with me even though I know it is totally unrealistic right now. he'll be home after the holiday's, it's not that much longer now, but I also feel like I am suspending some of my griefe to share with him bc I know it won't fully hit him till he comes physically back to our house.
it's a very weird way to feel, sort of like holding in my psychy-breath.

I secretly judge people sometimes if they use particular words that annoy me.. like the word galore.
nails down a chalkboard.
I also do that if they have this certain arch to their upper teeth ( I think some sort of bad childhood association from a mean older cousin), even though it's totally not fair.