[crazyoldcatlady]

* i want to liquidate everything i own, save my laptop and a few choice books.

[sassygrrl]

Thanks ginger! I miss my pets. I plan to get some more soon... I'll be able to play with McCrush's pets tomorrow. I can't wait.

Confession: I bought a pint of Mint Chocolate Brownie ice cream at Cold Stone Creamery today just for me....

Pepper, get your drink on!!

Confession: I am amazed by the Illusionist movie.... Holy shit.

Confession: I still have at least three loads of laundry left to do, but fuck it. Not gonna happen tonight.

Confession: I spent over $100 on clothes today, and feel no remorse. Because, I needed underwear and jeans... I do plan on splurging on Lost and GA tomorrow at Best Buy though. I need to curtail my internet spending though....

Confession: Worried a little about my shit job. I have yet another review next week to see if they will keep me or not. I feel almost too lazy to look for another one. It was such a pain to even find this one. Bleh.
I know that I can find a better one though. It's just the motivation that's getting me. I guess that this job is getting me by for now, and that's okay. It's paying the rent.



That last post had too many smileys, but I'm a little drunk... ha.

[pepper]

i AM going to start drinking now. it's 3:20 in the afternoon and i just don't care. i can't take the 'meh' anymore.

[katiebelle2882]

I was out until 6am this morning. And when I woke up at 1pm I was still really really drunk.

[ginger_kitty]

doodle your confession made me giggle!

Freckle, my avatar is a sun concure, I used to have as a pet. I just photoshoped it a bit.

sassy, don't feel bad a about missing your dog. My bird, that's my avatar died, unexpectedly alomst a year ago, and I still miss her every day.

Confessions:

I feel like I am a loser and I am never going to find a better job. And I don't search all that terrible hard b/c I really want to start my own business. I just don't have the funding, so I have to put it off. Which scares the crap out of me b/c I fear I will turn out just like my mother who had big dreams but never accomplished anything.

I hate talking on the phone with my mother. She has to repeat everything ten times and it makes me want to stab something into my eye.

I think I need a drink........

[flanker_ji]

It's the masochist in me, what can I say?

[bunnyb]

flanker, WHY would you do that?! I pretend that, by buying skinny and sugar-free, the drinks are good for me .

sassygrrl, our confessions are so alike.

I know that I need to stop spending but I have no remorse (although occasionally a wave of panic) over the things I buy myself as they make me happy. I am trying to rent dvds as opposed to buying them, though. Saying that, I've just bought some dvds and books that I *must* own. The convenience of online shopping scares me.

I too miss my dog. When my sister was born -almost 10 years ago- we had to find her a new home (through Irish Setter rescue) because she was so distraught. Sometimes I wish we had kept her instead of the screaming baby.

I have an intense case of The Fear over my dissertation. Nerves and panic have engulfed me in a suffocating shroud. I want to curl up with my 15tog duvet, Chocolat on dvd and a pint of Haagen Dazs. I can't though .

I only have a vague idea what day it is.

The Fear is intensifying my other emotions (PMS not helping either) but I'm freaking out about the boy leaving tomorrow. I know we'll be fine and we'll make our LDR work, and that we love each other more and more each day, but it still terrifies me how much I'll miss him. He's my world, my lover and my best friend and I know I'm going to cry at the train station tomorrow and then have to pull myself together to finish the bloody dissertation.

Are my BUSTies bored yet of my dissertation? cos I am! even the word is becoming a chore.

I really need to get back to it.

[sassygrrl]

Flanker, I did the exact same thing the other night! I too was looking for a job at Starbucks site, but the nutriional information pulled me in... happy job searching vibes... I could use some too...ahem.

Confession: Still having dreams about exboys. Not liking it.

Confession: I resent doing laundry right now, which is one main reason I want to go out tomorrow and buy some new clothes. Especially cute undies. For the fact that McCrush boy make see them someday as well. And I hate doing laundry.

Confession: I know that I should be civil to flatmate right now, but she's being uber bitch as of lately, and I don't want to deal with it.

[flanker_ji]

Confession: I'm having fun on a Friday night... looking up the nutritional information of my favorite Starbucks beverages! Have you tried it before? It's fun! You can put in the size of the drink, the type of milk, AND yes or no to whipped cream. Then you tell it to recalculate, and all the info is updated.

I'm supposed to be doing job search stuff right now. At least I looked at the career info on the website before I found the nutrition info, right?

[lowredmoon]

i confess:
* i've been sitting so long at the computer that my ass actually hurts. so i went and got a pillow to sit on.

* i have been avoiding everyone's phone calls, because i don't want to talk to them. i feel like we've already said everything, and i have no desire to hear about anyone else's problems right now, when i have so damn many of my own. and if they want to talk about their wonderful lives and/or their boy troubles, then i resent them, because i don't have either.

*i'm sitting home alone on a friday night, surfing craftster and knitting. and really, i'm completely happy doing it.

* i resent that i am the only person in this house/member of this family who tries to keep the house clean, and when i see it all crumble back down into a huge mess, i want to cry and go back to bed.

* i'm really kind of enjoying being unemployed, sitting around in my pajamas all day watching television and knitting. add in a psychic phone line and substitute hipster roommates for my parents, and i'm winona ryder in reality bites.

* i'm giving up on finding a wonderful job, and concentrating on finding a job that will just get me by. and i'm looking at going back into a caretaking field (elder care this time), because even though it's not what i want, i have experience and i'm good at it. and at the same time, i hate that i always end up in some kind of caretaker role because there are no other opportunities around here for me, and because my experience in these roles aren't valued by any other prospective employer in any other field.

* that i can't sleep at night, so i've been taking benadryl to knock myself out.

[sassygrrl]

Confession: I plan on drinking the wine that I was going to drink last night. Probably by myself while watching Sideways.

Confession: I really need retail therapy this weekend. I do not feel guilty about buying clothes or dvds/cds or books for that matter, because they make me quite happy.

Confession: I'll remember HALT next week at work. Sounds like good advice.

Confession: I plan on eating loads of chocolate tonight b/c I'm PMSing hardcore.

Confession: I still miss my dog... Even though she's been dead for 6 years, I miss her.

[yuefie]

confession: doodlebug's post made me laugh. out loud. very hard. much to the chagrin of others. oopsie.

confession: I spend way too much money on the frivilous, last minute, impulse items when buying groceries. whenever I am at the natural foods market, I always end up throwing in whatever new frou frou new organic chocolate they just stocked, lip balm, roll on lavender (it's aromatherapy for de-stressing!), the latest issues of magazines like alternative health, natural health, body & soul, and all the cooking mags like bon appetit, gourmet, etc.

confession: I know I'm broke and I should make better choices on how I spend the money I do have, but I don't feel guilty about buying these things for myself. They make me happy

confession: I know I spend WAY too much money on magazines in general and that I should read more books.

[doodlebug]

confession: today I am cursed with farts, and not only am I cursed with farts, but these ones are so stinky that I can't stand to be around myself.

[freckleface2727]

ginger-

I get that way at places sometimes too, like when I went to pick up my prescriptions at the big hospital pharamacy, and there are 2 or 3 different ways/places/lines to get your meds from, all very specific instructions and am always fearful I am getting it wrong and will sit there and sit there, feeling wronger and wronger and wanting to ask someone how it works but am too embarrassed. (fyi I was ok and only waited about 20 mns yest).

confession: either it's my eyes, or I wish there were a way to see fellow busties icons & logo's better, bc some of them look really interesting and funny to me. ( i-e the ones that come to mind first: faith's -what does that say? and ginger's: what the hell is that? to ME it looks like some sort of bluebird made of mercury maybe? (my eyes are I think are not so good..). mine, for what it's worth, is a statue of a lovely strong looking female on the side of a bridge in paris on the sein, taken from a boat while we were going past .)

[ginger_kitty]

I had to go to the BMV today and I always have a little panic attack, I feel like they are going to some how forget to call me and I'll just be trapped there all day, wondering when my turn is. I was nervous the whole time I was there.

[wombat]

thanks, butterfly.

[butterfly]

Well, I guess there only has to be one possible good outcome.

And I hope that you find it Wombat.

[wombat]

Glad you like it.

Didn't realize it was so long!

It just came out, like that. Nice.

Think I'll keep it too.

It took awhile for me to come by this. I need it for myself for my next step, too.

I tend to think everything's just going to end badly. That there are not too many good possible outcomes. That I don't have much of a chance. And I need to stop thinking that way.

[butterfly]

Wombat, that HALT acronym seems like pretty good advice! (well all of it sounded good to me)
Hmmm gonna have to remember that, thanks for posting it.

[pepper]

thanks for taking the time to write all of that out for me. i'm going to copy it and save it to read it again later on. after i eat something, ha ha.