[ketto]

*shudder* Scary stuff.

I'm not in the states but one of my partners co-workers said to him (in response to a recent newspaper article about how people of colour will outnumber white folks in the next 10 years here or something), "Did you hear about that article? Soon there'll be more of them than us." Seriously, people still say shit like that?

[auralpoison]

"DEAR LORD, THIS YEAR YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE ACTOR, PATRICK SWAYZIE. YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE ACTRESS, FARAH FAWCETT. YOU TOOK MY FAVORITE SINGER, MICHAEL JACKSON. I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW, MY FAVORITE PRESIDENT IS BARACK OBAMA. AMEN"

Confession: This bothers me on so many levels . . . I don't really know what to say. Facebook is lame, but . . .

I may not have been behind the Bush administration, but I never called for the man's death even humorously. It's not fucking funny. Both men have wives & two daughters for fuck's sake.

I've kinda felt beaten up ever since Obama took office. America has really made an effort to show the fact that we're racist as fuck. Reputable newspapers have run cartoons displaying the Obama family as being simian, made light of lynchings, the whole birther thing, etc. People that I thought knew better have just been ignorant as fuck.

It's really made me think. I'm of mixed race, but I've never thought about it much. My confidence carries me through most situations, I don't tend to think/care about how people assess me, & my beigeness almost never occurs to me. I know that that is my own willful naïveté & wishful thinking. I know that white America sees me as different/other/SUSPECT, but I don't like to think about how far that really extends. I like to think I am an equal even though I know that in societal reality that I am not, my being a vagina American not withstanding. Whatever gets me through the day, right?

It hurts to know that people that I considered friends really let race colour their thinking & that their biases extend to me in one way or another. As much as we'd like to deny it, race is a BIG part of this. And the "Well, I wasn't talking about YOU" makes it even worse. I am not exempt. I AM THEM whether you like it or not. I am your FRIEND, NOT your "black friend" that makes it okay for you say dumb shit. And if you think that way, are you really my friend at all?

PS. How smart are you if you can't spell "Swayze" or "Farrah" correctly? It's called GOOGLE.

[auralpoison]

Yeah, I realized today that I've managed to avoid the idiot for nearly two years. Which is a fucking FEAT in this small of a community. Thank bless I gave him the dog & changed the locks on his ass. He did show up a few weeks ago when I was asleep & took the pig from the porch. At least I assume it was him.

[pollystyrene]

Eek, Lucky's the reason I stopped watching King of the Hill. He was just too annoying.

[auralpoison]

Confession: The character of Lucky on King of the Hill looks just like my mom's boyfriend sans moustache. W is certainly more honorable, but about the same manners/IQ-wise.

[deschatsrouge]

I started walking away from Catholicism when I was 14. very so often I think I've shaken it completely and then it pokes it's head out from under my bed and gives me an evil grin.

[auralpoison]

Confession: Bitch did NOT kill his ass. I am relieved.

Confession: I miss my piece. I miss being loved on more than once a month. I miss the fine art of compromise. I miss partnership & I hate LDRs.

Confession: I miss my dad a lot. It's been nearly ten years since he died & there are so many things I wish we could have shared as grownups. I cry the most bittersweet tears for that man.

[foryoursplendor]

Confession: I find my new boss attractive in a "oh, you clearly work out, but aren't super muscly" kind of way. He gets the job done, yum.

[stargazer]

Confession: I hope I meet a man who loves Saturday Night Fever as much as I do. Our wedding song could be More Than a Woman. Wouldn't that be cool?!?

[auralpoison]

The movie I watched tonight ended & is now being followed by the AVN awards. My god. I hope most of these girls have really good money managers. Seriously. So. Fucking. Stupid. One of them that was working the red carpet asked a porn starlet who she was wearing, starlet admitted she couldn't pronounce the designer's name. Red carpet girl steps in with, "Same designer as mine, Herve Leger". The Herve didn't throw her, but the Leger did, she called him "lager". And she just kept saying it, "lager lager lager". So of course, I put on some Underworld.

So I guess I'm saying porn starlets are stupid & cannot handle foreign tongues unless they are being used in or on their bodies. And I still like Underworld.

Also, I have always found Dave Navarro to be fucking skeevy. His whole, "I'm dark & damaged, love me" schtick was lame when I was young. Now he wears way too much makeup & he obviously has his hair Japanese hair straightened to within an inch of his life. The man is just like, the epitome of middle-aged Hot Topic corny.

[stargazer]

Confession: I still feel like I fucked up a good opportunity in my previous training site. I feel like I will miss out on alot of job opportunities.

[buttercups]

Wow koffee, that is awful!! I've always been scared of police too, and they've always been big bullies to me. I'm not surprised at your story, but it scares me nevertheless!

[koffeewitch]

I don't get police at all. My personal experience is of police using insane tactics that go way beyond any definition of "abuse of power". Here in Columbus some years ago a woman dialed 911 because she heard someone trying to break into her apartment. When the police arrived they raped her (her story) or they all had consensual sex (the police's story). Then the police really blew it (in my estimation) by claiming that they couldn't possibly rape the woman because she had been a prostitute in the past. (!!!) Even if the sex was consensual WHY THE BLEEDING JESUS were cops having sex on the job?? So what happened to these cops?? They got a short suspension WITH PAY. A paid vacation!
Recently our cops got busted for taking jail inmates food and rubbing it into the anus and penises of other inmates, then forcing a targeted inmate to eat the dickandass-exposed food. The police got caught doing this because they took photos of it on their cell-phone cameras. Their punishment? Another paid vacation.
The way police have dealt with me personally has been as over-grown frat boys. Police scare the bloody fuck out of me most of the time. I have known a few kind, excellent cops. I wish I knew more; my over all opinion of them is that they are a dangerous gang to be feared and avoided like any other gang. The only people I have seen get leniency have been other cops, celebrities, and the wealthy.
ketto, I hope things are different in your city. I would really like to believe that it doesn't have to be like this.

[ketto]

koffee, you'd be surprised at how lenient the police can be with certain people. /hijack.

[koffeewitch]

AP, if the police find out any part of this info...what IF? WHEN the police put all this info together it will not matter if she did it or if it was just a coincidence...they will hang her for it. Unless there is a "smoking gun", you may never know for sure, but even if she is innocent she stands only a snowball's chance in hell. I feel for her if she is truly not guilty; the police will tear her to shreds...

[auralpoison]

Confession: I look back on my life & sometimes marvel at the number of truly crazy people I know/have known. How did I ever survive them?

I ran into an old friend on FB this morning, we IM'd for a bit until I asked about one of our other old friends, at which point he asked me to call him as it was complicated. I found out that she may or may not have killed her husband.

She lives in a fairly small community & it is/was common knowledge around town that she's basically a violent, unmedicated, drunken serial offender (REPEATED ADW, battery, perjury, a slew of drunken shenanigans), he was older/had a heart condition, he mentioned wanting a divorce, they had a VERY BIG FIGHT, she got drunk, next morning he was dead. She claims to have no idea what happened. The cops called her down for a "routine statement", so she didn't contact a lawyer or anything & wound getting full-on interrogated. Basically, if this guy's tox screen comes back as anything less than perfectly normal, she is probably guilty & probably fucked.

Now, knowing her as I do, I do not think she is by nature a murderer. BUT. Do I think she could have done it? Well, she is a blackout drunk, she is spiteful, she is creative & she doesn't really consider the consequences of the things she does when she's angry & drunk. I would not put it past her at all to tamper with things just to "show him" & not realize that she could actually kill him in the process. She has, uh, inflicted more than a few . . . I'm just gonna come out & say it: She has stabbed some people. She wasn't trying to kill them, but without intervention she probably would have & not really considered it until after she'd sobered up. So I guess I'm gonna hope she's innocent, but wager that she probably ain't.

[auralpoison]

Confession: I sometimes really hate the fact that I almost always take the high road rather than the low even when I'm really pissed. Something I said in idle tonight made another person go so completely off the rails butthurt that she picked a fight with me. We were talking movies/movie soundtracks, she said one song, I said another. This was apparently a poor choice on my part. She went from zero to name-calling & confrontational in six seconds. Literally. I became the "film gestapo" & she challenged, "What now? Are you gonna tell me the artist didn't sing the song?" Uh, no. I don't care enough. I just rolled my eyes & left it, but she continued to bait me. And right now I am so fucking annoyed with myself for not knocking her down a peg I could scream. But I don't know her, I'm not gonna have to interact with her much, so why burn the bridge?

[coffeebean]

(((archegonia)))

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[sybarite]

Hey archegonia--the Committed thread over in the Mating Game takes on board all things to do with relationships, so feel free to post there. There are threads in Friends and Family which might appeal too.

Also, take care, it sounds like you're dealing with a lot right now (((you))).

[archegonia]

aww, thank you for the love ladies.

i dont say those things out loud and remembered this thread on monday when i wanted to scream it out. i love the bust lounge for the support. i'm truckin' as hard as i can and i can see the light at the end of the tunnel. just 2 more months.

i'll certainly keep you posted, is there a more appropriate thread for this?

<3