[pollystyrene]

Oh cod, LeBoy's mom has one of those cement geese that she dresses up.

Most of her decor annoys me. I just don't understand the need to have chotchkies on every wall/surface of your house. I'm far from minimalist, but I try to decorate with things that have personal meaning to me; not just a random piece of mass-produced crap I bought at Bed Bath and Beyond because it matched the couch. In the bathroom that was LeBoy's when he lived there, she had this thing hanging on the wall that's like a basket-woven thing (but not a basket, just flat, but made out of the same...hay?...that they use for baskets) that was painted country blue, had mauve wooden letters that said "BATH" and a little old-fashioned bath tub with flowers... why do you need something that says "bath" in the bathroom? In case you pass out drunk and wake up trying to figure out where you are? I was so tempted to just take the damn thing down every time I went in there.

The way she folds her towels on the towel ring drives me crazy and I "fix" it every time I go there.

[girltrouble]

oh, freck, i have goose rage.

it's bad. i fly into a horrible rage anytime i see those goddamn geese with bows around their necks. you know like on towels curtains n stuff. i HATE IT. i see red. an ex gf's mom used to actually have a 2ft goose statue outside her door that had seasonal outfits for every month. i so wanted to kidnap it. oh the bad things i had in mind....

[freckleface7]

confession: women who decorate in cows ( & ducks & pigs, hearts, bows etc) irrationally Annoy me. Bad.
it's like chicks that play softball- I must wear a beacon that is seen only by them "please beat me up" only it's me wanting to do the beating.

[sybarite]

A cucumber collins does indeed sound superb; might try making them this summer...

Confession: My life is very likely to change for the better across the board in two months or so in fundamental ways: a good house move, a great job opportunity. Yet while I'm abstractly excited and grateful for these developments, I seem to be veering between unfocused rage and a kind of despair. I just can't seem to care about most things right now and I keep wanting to tell everyone to just get out of my face already.

Some of this is hormonal but damn if it doesn't feel much bigger than that, it feels existential.

Today's blackness was exacerbated by the fact I've extended--and therefore increased--my current loan. More financial commitment potentially trapping me in the future. *Sigh* Whatever.

[pollystyrene]

Yum! Reminds me of that cucumber martini I got at Silver Cloud when we went there before that book reading, star!

[culturehandy]

That drink sounds divine!!! Divine I tells you!!

Too bad I'll be off the vodky for a while. Probably for the best.

[stargazer]

Yup, rudder. The Cucumber Collins included Hendrick’s Gin, Cucumber Soda, and Cucumber Puree. It was delish! A nice summer-y drink.

[girltrouble]

star, that is awesome. hell, you are awesome!

[stargazer]

Confession: I feel like I am moving away from the woman I "thought" I would be. I feel like I am moving into the woman I am meant to be. I feel good about that. Change is hard, lots of setting of boundaries, ending of unhealthy relationships, but, I feel the wealth of good friendships in my life and the love of my parents are proof of the positive outcome of it all.

Confession: I've learned the difference between needing and wanting in a relationship. Also, the work I need to do for a healthy relationship.

Confession: While in Boston, I had a Cucumber Collins and I thought about rudder's love of Vodka Collins.

[deschatsrouge]

I want a bottle of bourbon, I will have to settle for hard cider.

[missladyj]

confession: I spent my sunday watching all the DVR recordings of gossip girl and 90210 while eating crap.

[sybarite]

I'm coming out of about 2 years of working really hard and feeling trapped in a life that isn't mine. Now that everything looks set to change for the better, I realise I have been harbouring a lot of anger and resentment, and now it's all coming out. I understand its existence, and even think it is valid, but I'm torn between being afraid of what I will do or say... and wanting to tell everyone involved to go to hell.

[girltrouble]

culture: what rudder and freck said. you can do this, deets. you can.

confession:i'm already feeling overwhelmed by the film festival. funny thing...the movies start next fri.

[freckleface7]

culture phone: ditto what Gt said.
you Are stronger than you know. and competent and capable and scary smart to boot!
sometimes that first step is the hardest but left foot follows right from that point on and just keep going.
you are totally supported here. ((((((((CH))))))))

confession: I cannot believe that the car dealership gave me the jeep for the weekend.
ME !

confession: I will NOT be afraid of the mr's reaction to it. not not not!

[girltrouble]

culture, you are more than strong enough for this. i know you are. i know you are afraid, but i know you can do it. you will be stronger and better for it. take those baby steps, little bites, don't think about the big picture, or you will keep feeling overwhelmed.

you can do this.

[culturehandy]

I am afraid of the task at hand.

I am afraid of letting go of what I've always known and how I've always been.

I can't continue on the path I'm on or I will destroy myself. Which is why I have to change the above.

[doodlebug]

WOOT for zoya!!!!!

[girltrouble]

whew!

[culturehandy]

S-U-C-C-E-S-S that's the way you spell success!!

YAY Zoya!!!

[zoya]

hi all.... ok, well, I think I managed to do one better... I called my friend who the email was intended for, (who doesn't work there anymore) and asked her to try her password to get into the account, and delete it. It worked. So hopefully, no one saw it. the emails I got before were totally unrelated to my email. so hopefully all is ok.

(the email addy in question is just a generic email addy that they use for "info." I had it in my address book under my friend's name, and it defaulted to that one, instead of her personal addy. that's why someone else uses it, because it's just one of those email addy's that they'll keep forever to do the same thing. I should never have put her name in my address book in conjunction with that email, but oh well.

so hopefully I've emerged unscathed. (fingers crossed)