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miss_jane
post Jun 1 2006, 02:59 PM
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I am part of a feminist group on myspace, and i look down on the women in it for not being as good feminists as us busties are.

I dislike one of my friends girlfriends but i pretend to like her because everyone else does. I don't even know why I don't like her.

I am still struggling to find my identity.

When I was little I used to endlessly fantasise about bad things happening to me - being in a car crash, someone i know dying, etc- i still do it but recently its mainly been about my emotionally abusive ex finding me and shouting at me, or chasing me, or being trapped with him again. And it freaks me out and I have no idea what to do about it. I hate these thoughts and they upset me and I just want him out of my mind and forgotton but I can't stop these thoughts.

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ginger_kitty
post Jun 1 2006, 02:52 PM
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Been there crazyoldcatlady, I searched myspace found my ex boyfriend. Saw he was doing terrible and ended up feeling awful. I really feel if I reached out to my ex it would be serious betrayal of my hubby. My ex's profile seemed more like a suicide note than a self description and it really seems like he needs to hear a friendly voice. But I adore my hubby way too much to ever break his trust.


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crazyoldcatlady
post Jun 1 2006, 01:55 PM
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From: here. in my head.


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battygurl
post Jun 1 2006, 01:08 PM
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doodle, that is too cool how you sent the photo.

Thanks lucizoe. I know I have a right to be upset, but I still feel guilty.


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Tears are curious things, for like earthquakes or puppet shows they can occur at any time, without any warning, and without any good reason. --Lemony Snicket
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plynn
post Jun 1 2006, 11:28 AM
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From: Alberta


I just found this thread yesterday and have gone back and read the entire thing. While at work.

I surf at work so much that sometimes I think I should be fired. I guess it's yet another compulsion to add my OCD menagerie.

When Alligator mentioned how much he(?) loved the song Hey Hey Guy I immediately went to iTunes and downloaded. I want alligator to post more eurotrash disco confessions so I can be reminded of more wretched music that I love.

I've spent over $300 downloading songs on iTunes in a year and a half

I have been fighting with trichotrillomania (hair pulling) for most of my life, but especially since high school. Over the years I've learned many coping and avoidance mechanisms in therapy and should be able to keep it under control, but sometimes I'm just too freaking lazy. It's too much work to control my urges and I'd almost rather just pull out my eyelashes.

I also pick at my husband, pulling stray hairs and trying to squeeze his zits. I know I have to stop in order to maintain a healthy and trusting relationship, but sometimes I'd honestly rather have the satisfaction of popping a big zit.

This is really embarrassing.
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mornington
post Jun 1 2006, 11:27 AM
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(((dirtybunny))) & (((culturehandy))) & (((erinjane)))

I sometimes read this thread without confessing anything ( this is my first confession)

I get very easily irritated with one of my flatmates. I think it's because he's so relentlessly chipper. That and he is a complete fucking know-it-all who never socialises with us because he's always busy doing something somewhere else. And gets shirty when we don't tell him things... because we haven't seen him for three days because he's never fucking here. *whew* (maybe this should go in the cob thread)

I still love my ex dearly, and despite him being one of my closest friends, I know I will fall apart if he finds somebody else. At least before I find someone, although part of me smugly believes this will not happen.

I cannot wait to move out of this flat.
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freckleface2727
post Jun 1 2006, 08:53 AM
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From: east coast


dirtybunny-

wishing you a great celebration for your life as it stands today!!

culturehandy-
great news on the court stuffs, and woo woo on the new guy:-)



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dirtybunny
post Jun 1 2006, 07:44 AM
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(((everyone)))
As we get older we learn from our mistakes and those others have made...things will always get better; sometimes it takes time!

confession:
I'm scared of uncertainty and always doubt myself and my artwork. Today's my birthday and I hate it! I don't like having people fawn over me because I'm a year older. Can we just start subtracting years? I'm not scared of the aging it's that I had better expectations for myself.
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culturehandy
post Jun 1 2006, 06:52 AM
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Thanks for the hugs all. Just to let you know I saw my lawyer yesterday and things went great. Chances of me with a crimnal record are zero. In fact, I probably don't even need to go to court at all! So relieved. The other good thing is that I do not have a criminal record at all, nor have I ever had a run with the police, previous to Saturday of course.

(((everyone))))

Okay confession time. Now I am trying to fuck a new man, just sex that's all, and he is being receptive to it!


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Hatred does not cease in this world by hating, but by not hating; this is an eternal truth. --- Buddah, The Dhammapada
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freckleface2727
post Jun 1 2006, 04:12 AM
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doodle-
Amelie w/ audry tatou?

good for you for mailing the letter & w/ the picture!

I have a thing for cheap, really slutty shoes, which I buy, but then never wear.
I'm forcing myself to part w/ 2 pairs of them in the yard sale, but am now worried what my neighbors will think when they see them. 'ex stripper? reformed whore?' I hate living out here anyway but these shoes do sorta scream Pole Dancer. (not that there's anything wrong w/ that mind you!)


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bklynhermit
post May 31 2006, 11:33 PM
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i'm afraid to go to the dentist.

i never liked it much as a kid, for a variety of reasons. and then due to parental neglect and later my own lack of dental coverage, i haven't been in 10 years.

which scares me even more because i just know there's going to be a thousand things wrong with my teeth which are going to require endless visits and painful procedures and I HATE THE DENTIST!

even though i know that it's better to go now and get it taken care of than to wait till my teeth start falling out or something.

but i'm too scared.

oh, and (((((erinjane))))) the exact same thing happened to me, and even though it was years ago now i still hurt over it. pm me if you ever need to talk.
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erinjane
post May 31 2006, 11:23 PM
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Some friends know that I was raped, and two know that I loved him, but no one knows how damaged I still am, and how I still think about the fucker, and want him to hurt and how sometimes late at night I get so depressed I can't breath.



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pepper
post May 31 2006, 10:18 PM
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hee, doodle, that's so sweet and funny and cute.
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doodlebug
post May 31 2006, 09:26 PM
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I know it's only rock 'n' roll. But I like it.
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I mailed the card with a photocopy of the picture, and black rectangles over the eyes of me, him, and Santa. I scribbled a note at the bottom promising the real photo upon proof that he's one of the people in it.

Oh god, I think I've officially watched Amelie too many times.


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lucizoe
post May 31 2006, 08:45 PM
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battygurl, I don't think it's selfish to be concerned for your own mental health as well as hers. It affects you too, and neglecting that won't help anyone. I wish the people in my family would be more honest with me about how I affect their moods (I have depression as well). It would make me feel less like an emotional leech. Obviously that's just my situation...and everyone knows I'm frail, so they don't feel they can talk to me honestly.

Just wanted to say, I don't think you're selfish.
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battygurl
post May 31 2006, 08:27 PM
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doodle- with or without the picture?

confessions: I am also afraid of phones, especially of calling people

I'm angry at the effects my sister's depression is having on me, and I feel selfish that I'm making it about how it's affecting me instead of her.


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lucizoe
post May 31 2006, 07:44 PM
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Ha, tiger, I did that too. I worked as a receptionist for four months at an environmental lab (where I was harassed daily for being a progressive anti-war feminist). HAD to answer it, interact with strangers, etc. I think it helped.

doodle - exciting and scary *eep!*
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tyger
post May 31 2006, 07:35 PM
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lucizoe, i'm scared of the phone, too. and of people. so i went and got a job where i answer the phone and deal with people. sometimes it's okay, and sometimes i want to run and hide. i still wait as long as possible to answer to phone to give ANYBODY else a chance to grab it before i do.

i don't know if i want to keep going to school. but i'm going to finish my degree if only because i'm stubborn and refuse to do anything remotely quitter-ish
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doodlebug
post May 31 2006, 07:33 PM
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I mailed the card.


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lucizoe
post May 31 2006, 07:24 PM
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I'm scared of the phone and my voicemail. I haven't done anything wrong, I'm not anticipating anything bad, I don't owe any money, there's no reason to screen my calls, but I'm scared to answer it. And afraid of listening to voicemail, because I never call people back. Because I'm scared of the phone.

*headdesk*
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