[stargazer]

(((zoya)))

as for the bust thing, i usually tell people my busties friends i met through a feminist networking site. i get to keep my anonymity without revealing i'm on the bust boards. i guess i don't know what the big deal is about meeting people from bust. i mean, people date online so making friends online seems natural to me.

confession: the past couple of weeks, my insecurity and self doubts have been affecting me. and i try to stay centered and not focused on the end result or what i don't have. but it is a struggle i tell you. i wish i had more faith in myself.

[freckleface7]

Confession: I own seventeen lipsticks. I just counted them, after I brought another one home this afternoon. (Rimmel's Almond Macaroon.) All those stupid makeup artists who say you only need 2 or 3 colours and a lip brush to blend them must have way too much time on their hands, and too many bags on their shoulders to carry all the extra crap around with them. Lipstick tube + pocket is all I want to have to manage out in the world.

only 17 doodle?
you've made me want to go and count now.
once, at a meeting that was pretty much over, a friend called me out on it and made me dump my purse & I think I had 11 w/ me right at that moment.

- does it count if well over 1/2 are shades I bought my mistake & don't wear?
( I am damned & determined to find the right brown-based shade of red that doesn't look hideous on me.)

syb- your avatar: molly ringwald is going to be in a new show coming up, called 'the secret life of a teenage girl' and is playing the Mom of a teen who apparently gets pregnant.
just the other day I saw a re-play of 'For Keeps' with her.

where does the time go?

[doodlebug]

Confession: I own seventeen lipsticks. I just counted them, after I brought another one home this afternoon. (Rimmel's Almond Macaroon.) All those stupid makeup artists who say you only need 2 or 3 colours and a lip brush to blend them must have way too much time on their hands, and too many bags on their shoulders to carry all the extra crap around with them. Lipstick tube + pocket is all I want to have to manage out in the world.

[sybarite]

I refer to bust as 'that feminist board' to my mister freckle. I've told family and the mister about meeting people from bust, aka 'that site I go to' and mention that I post here, but I'd never give them the URL. When I first started posting here years ago I would talk about intensely personal stuff and I guess I still need to feel I could post a 'letter I'd never send' in relative privacy from RL people.

I thought my sister would think it was weird to meet up with people I met online when I told her about it, but she thought it was cool.

[freckleface7]

I refer to bust as 'that feminist board/site I post at.' which tends to create a vocal circle of <funy looks > & 'ohhh. ' + change of subject.
it amazes me how uncomfortable people still are with That Word. ( I know, fodder for the F Word thread! )


I confess: I now owe the public library over $100** "in donations" for 4 books that have been sitting on my front door etage for several months now. they don't even call & harrass me anymore.
bad freckle!!

I also confess: after my first thereapy session today (yah me!) I went out & bought (on the Club Targe't card) myself the Garmin Nuvi 200 I've been coveting for several months now. one of my phobia's is a severe fear of getting lost going places, so I sort of justify it as 'self help therapy' which actually makes sense.
the mr didn't even bat an eye this time.

[zoya]

I'm the same - totally hidden from real life people. I know a few busties IRL and if anything happened to me, they'd know who to get a hold of and would post...


my confession for the day - the busy social life I was having for awhile has slowed down and now that there aren't any parties or shows or planned events, I'm afraid that my new friends in this new city won't include me in just regular old get togethers. Even though one IMed me last weekend just to meet up for coffee that afternoon. I'm afraid that my new friends don't really like me that much.

corrollary to that confession - clearly my fear of abandonment issues are coming up....

[doodlebug]

I keep the Lounge very well hidden from most people in my "real" life. Only a couple of trusted people (my mom and my best friend) really know about my participation here, and only then so they can tell everyone if anything ever happens to me.

[neurotic.nelly]

Glad to know I am not alone.

[deathaniexo]

confession: my best friend posts on a different message board. recently one of her friends hooked up with the boy she liked while at a festival and she will not stand up for herself because of what would be said on the boards. maybe because i'm a newbie i don't understand, but i wanna smack the crap out of her.

[deschatsrouge]

I try to get Mrs. Rouge on Bust but she doesn't want to.

[lilacwine13]

AZ Guy really doesn't get why I'm on bust either. He thinks I'm weird for talking to people online.

[culturehandy]

I don't know who to believe.

[konphusion26]

my bf would rather me not be on bust. ever! he is a total feminist, he loves and respects women and women love him. he values the strength of a woman, and respects pro-choice but he hates bust. *shruggs shoulders*

he makes fun of me everytime I am on bust, and I feel like I have to hide it from him.

i am to the point where i don't care if he makes fun of me, but it's just a ridiculous situation. we live in a studio with one computer. i've stayed late after work just to be able to get a few posts out in peace.

Nelly, my dear, your guy isn't the only one that raises a stink when you're on bust! My husband actually speaks of bust as if i'm having an affair with it LOL I don't get it! Maybe I spend more time posting on bust than spending time with him. I don't see it that way though. Guys just dont understand!

[neurotic.nelly]

my bf would rather me not be on bust. ever! he is a total feminist, he loves and respects women and women love him. he values the strength of a woman, and respects pro-choice but he hates bust. *shruggs shoulders*

he makes fun of me everytime I am on bust, and I feel like I have to hide it from him.

i am to the point where i don't care if he makes fun of me, but it's just a ridiculous situation. we live in a studio with one computer. i've stayed late after work just to be able to get a few posts out in peace.

[deschatsrouge]

I have a fake baby because John Waters has a fake baby.

[crazyoldcatlady]

*ooooooh weeeee.... guuuuueeessss planned parenthood is gettin' a big 'ole fat check this week.

*i have had so much diet coke today and i am shaking. do you know exactly *how* much diet coke is needed to give the shakes to an addict? i think i'm pissing aspartame.

[Moonpieluv]

((doodle))

((freckle)) I am entirely too hard on myself. I analyse things until they become convoluted and pulsating on the ground like a melted gremlin.

I wish I could just breathe and let go and find my flow again. I fell off the buggie and haven't been listening to the almighty universe. If I could just find that flow again... how easily life can seem unable to navigate if you let it.
I make things way too complicated, when all I wish for is a certain simplicity.

[deschatsrouge]

((((Doodle)))))

[freckleface7]

(((((((((doodle))))))))))) wish I could give you some flowers and make you smile.

[doodlebug]

confession: I haven't cried in over a year, but yesterday morning in the hospital, I was so frustrated with being back there and also from dealing with stupid shit (like my IV being in the crook of my elbow so that every time I moved my arm, it stopped and beeped and woke me up; and being unable to dress myself, trying to get that stupid gown on around my IV; and having the nurse move my IV to a very painful place on the inside of my wrist; and throwing up and having chills and a fever; plus it was about eight million degrees in my room) that I wept buckets and buckets and just kept saying, "I want to go hoooooome"....

confession: when the ER nurse (a male) ask me if I had any issues with my poop, I had to confess that I did but that it was probably brought on by a large amount of anal sex. *blushes furiously*

confession: when the CT tech asked me if there was any chance I could be pregnant, I said no....even though I just had massive amounts of sex the few days beforehand! Because I knew that even if I was pregnant, I wouldn't be having it....but a good number of medical personal in a town like this are anti-choice, and I wanted my CT scan, so I lied.