[suffering]

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How is school everyone? Let me live vicariously through you - I miss school!!

[stargazer]

i haven't posted in here for awhile...i think 'cause i was avoiding the topic of school altogether...

i understand the discussion of wanting a real job and having a simple life. i hit that wall all overachiever's hit eventually in their careers. and the actual reality of not having 10 things going on at once was frightening as hell for me. my friend would always say she worried about me when i was done with school. i didn't understand what she was talking about until this summer....

i hit a number of roadblocks on the way to finishing my psy.d. in clinical psychology. a couple of failures and self doubt in myself. but, being at a presentation this saturday helped me to put things into perspective. and now i'm focusing on things full steam ahead. although this cold makes me feel like i'm moving at half throttle, but i will be up and going in no time.

so, i'm reapplying for internship positions this Fall. i didn't get a position last year. and i was really bummed. really bummed. but, as my family and friends would say, all things happen for a reason. i've actually asked for help from numerous people this time around, which was pretty good. i've started collecting my data. i'm hoping this year will help me for next year. kinda like a rebirth for me.

yeah, dragonbait and sybarite, i hear you with the burn out and the whole completion anxiety. at 31, i'm done with being a student. i just want to be a doctor already. when i think of all of the education i've had since 4, it is unreal. i'm tired of school dictating my life. i'm ready to be my own leader...