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post Jan 22 2013, 10:36 AM
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post Oct 26 2012, 08:28 PM
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Mad Hattie
post Dec 19 2011, 10:59 PM
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I don't think that anyone here needs a reminder of why we are accused of having a "rape culture" but the controversy surrounding the PA Liquor Control Board PSAs and some of the shocking responses to the criticism (I've heard a disturbing number of people who don't understand "what all the fuss is about" and think that the ad serves a necessary purpose) have reminded me of how deep the need for awareness really runs. Unfortunately, there are many people whose first instinct is to blame victims. I hope more people begin to understand that victim blaming and victim shaming does not serve to protect you from violence. We have to work together and embracing and supporting victims is paramount. (((())))) for all the smart and strong survivors!
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post Oct 27 2011, 12:55 AM
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post Aug 27 2011, 02:04 AM
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QUOTE(empty_sack @ Aug 25 2011, 06:50 AM) *
Just want to say that for a long time I didn't really understand the impact that rape has on women. I don't claim to understand now but having heard it compared to castration for men, and having lost my testicles, I think I can be a little more aware of what you have to go through.


i appreciate that you think you feel more 'aware'

i do

but, no

no, you aren't

and no, no you don't

losing your balls isn't the same

as losing your sense of safety, security and self

apples and vicious, violent sexual assault, if you will

not to make light

i do not know your story

BUT

unless your balls were being removed

while another person tortured, terrified, twisted

and forced their ANGRY, VIOLENT appendage/object into your orifice(s)

you aren't any more 'aware' about rape

than you were before

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more thoughtful, compassionate man, NO
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post Aug 25 2011, 06:50 AM
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Just want to say that for a long time I didn't really understand the impact that rape has on women. I don't claim to understand now but having heard it compared to castration for men, and having lost my testicles, I think I can be a little more aware of what you have to go through.


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post Aug 22 2011, 12:00 AM
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For women who have been raped and/or abused, or a victim or witness of violence, there is going to be a women's workshop on my forum, Believe. Zine.

http://womensworkshop.proboards.com

This specific workshop is Sugar Heart Victims of Abuse and Rape Women's Workshop. Please visit to learn more.

Believe. Zine is a girly, Christian zine. There are many topics, from spirituality to fashion to arts n crafts... The other women's workshop is called Get On The Spiritual Path To Jesus's Women's Workshop. The forum is still heavily under construction, but it is decent enough to have users join. Come check it out.

Aside from the workshops and posts, I give free advice and will have free therapy sessions, kept anonymous if the user wishes.

Have a blessed day,
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post Mar 8 2011, 05:00 PM
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((((((angie))))))

(((((ketto and kettos brother and family))))))

(((((safe hugs for everyone)))))




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strongirl
post Mar 8 2011, 01:23 PM
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(((angie))) (((ketto)))

You're so welcome - I am happy to help since I was helped so much by other women myself.

Angie, you said: "I think I also didn't want to call this any kind of assault because I have always believed I had the power to control my sexuality and my body and I would almost rather believe it is somehow my fault, than that that power really was taken away from me."

You described (so articulately, as usual!) one of the central issues that survivors can get very stuck on. It can be viewed almost as a catch-22:

If it wasn't your fault, then you couldn't control it. If you couldn't control it, then you can't control future events either -therefore you do not have control over your body and sexuality and are vulnerable to being violated again. This is terrifying! And it can lead to a fearful outlook that can be immobilizing.

On the other hand, if you could control it, but you didn't, then it is your fault that it happened and you are to blame. You should have stopped it, but you didn't stop it, perhaps you even "asked for it" by being somewhere you shouldn't have been in the first place, dressing provocatively, or drinking. This way of thinking leads to self-blame, self-anger, and guilt. It also lets your assailant very conveniently off the hook.

Getting out of that 2-sided trap is key to recovery. Think about this:

Regardless of where you went, how you dressed, how much you had to drink, whether you flirted, even whether you were somewhat involved with the person like Ketto - you would never have been raped if there hadn't been a rapist there. Period. End of story. Your actions and appearance cannot cause rape. Rapists cause rape. You are not to blame.

At the same time, there are definitely things you can do in the future to minimize your risk and retain control of your physical well-being, from setting "ground rules" on your drinking level and location, to lining up "buddy system" friends for club outings, to taking a self-defense class, to practicing assertiveness and role-plays with a counselor in which you rehearse different ways of saying "no" at various points in the interaction. Actively engaging in those self-protection activities/plans can be very empowering and help reduce your sense of vulnerability as well as your actual vulnerability.

Recognize that you were not to blame while you simultaneously take actions to promote your future safety.

And forgive and encourage yourself if meanwhile you bounce around between the two negative viewpoints some - it is part of the process of finding your balance.



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post Mar 4 2011, 05:39 PM
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I don't want to call it rape, exactly, it wasn't violent or even psychologically coercive. . . . I said the word "no" a lot, but other than that I have pretty much no case for calling it assault. Especially in Texas


I just finished reading Yes Means Yes , which addresses exactly this kind of situation and how fucked up and misogynist our society's concept of "rape" is. If you haven't read it already, you might be interested to one day.

I haven't experienced that kind of assault but I think your reactions are completely understandable. While at the same time, noooo not your fault!

Good luck with everything.

(((angie)))

(((ketto and ketto's brother)))
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ketto
post Mar 4 2011, 11:45 AM
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My assault happened when I was 17 and now that I'm almost 9 years past it, it's so strange to see how I dealt with it over time. When it happened I was in total denial - even though I said no and pushed and knew it felt wrong when it was happening, I laughed it off after and tried to create some sort of relationship with the much-older guy who took off 3 weeks later.

For over 2 years I didn't think much about it but when an aquaintance relayed a story about being pressured into sex and was quite upset after the fact all of a sudden I was completely triggered and caught off guard. That whole year was pretty much a write off - I ended up in sexual assault crisis counselling, and then on anti-depressents, and then in for regular counselling for a while. It was a really rough time in my life and it took me ages to say the word "rape".

The older I get the easier it is to say just how much he took advantage of me and to let go of my feelings of guilt. I had a lot of guilt too because I hung out with this guy, I went out for dinner with him, I made out with him, and I went into the backseat of my car with him but when I made the decision that I didn't want to go on he's the one who made the decision to ignore me and do what he wanted.

I think we try and legitimize what happened or justify it in so many ways because it makes it seem like less of a big deal. If we put ourselves there then it wasn't that someone else had the power to take our control away, it's because we made a bad decision. Sometimes it's so much easier to be hard on ourselves then the people who are responsible for the actions that took away our power.

Okay, I feel like I'm getting rambly here. (((angie)))

Thanks for asking about my brother. I'm glad he told me more recently when I was already doing counselling work because I felt like I could react better and ask him the important questions. It really does mean a lot to me that he knew he could trust me with this first. We're not he closest but I think we are where it counts. It was nice to be able to talk about it a bit with my mom too.


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angie_21
post Mar 3 2011, 07:00 PM
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Thank you so much ketto and strongirl. There is absolutely no way I can express how much your words have helped me. I don't know how but something you both said has helped me to stop replaying all the events in my mind. Until I posted here, I just kept going back to the moment I agreed to get into his car and berating myself for doing it. I just keep wishing I could take that moment back. But I didn't know it wasn't safe, at the time.

I actually had made the appointment with the counsellor to talk about my relationship troubles, and this occurred a few days before my counselling appointment, so he wasn't one of the sexual assault specialists. He found all the contact numbers for the women's centers here if I want to talk about it, and is taking it into account with everything else but said that we will only talk about that if I want to. My (ex?) boyfriend has been supportive, but he is having trouble with the fact that I agreed to go anywhere with another guy, drunk or not. Mostly though, he is very upset and angry at the guy who did it. He has been trying to convince me to go in to the rape crisis center on campus here even if only to report it in case this guy has been causing trouble for other girls too. I don't want to have to talk about it too much because I don't want it to become something I can't stop thinking about, it was a few hours of my life and I don't want it to be any more than that. But I do feel a lot better about it after what you have both said, and I probably will go soon.

I think I also didn't want to call this any kind of assault because I have always believed I had the power to control my sexuality and my body and I would almost rather believe it is somehow my fault, than that that power really was taken away from me. But somehow you both made it seem less scary and sad than I had thought. and yes, if the exact same thing happened to someone else I know I would never judge them or think it was their fault.

I'm very sorry to hear about your brother ketto, but I'm glad that he has been able to talk about it, and it sounds like by telling people maybe he has been reaching some sort of peace with it? My brother was also assaulted by a friend when he was a teenager. He told me about it when we were both teenagers and I actually blocked it from my memory until just a few months ago when my mom mentioned it to me. I wish so much that I had been able to be more helpful for him at the time. We do not have a very close relationship, and I would like to be able to talk to him about these things now that we are older.
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post Mar 1 2011, 05:10 PM
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(((angie)))

I am so sorry that happened to you.

People have a right to define their own experiences and you can call it whatever you want to call it. However, as a rape survivor myself and a former rape crisis counselor, I would not hesitate to call what you experienced rape. You termed it "nonconsensual", you "said the word 'no' a lot", and you were drunk and therefore not able to give consent nor resist. It might not be a worthwhile experience for you to try to convince Texas courts that it was rape, but for your own recovery process, I think rape crisis counseling could provide a really helpful framework.

Just in your short post you demonstrated a number of common reactions to being raped - denial, self-blame, self-anger/punishment, fear of being disbelieved or shamed, fear that the damage from the attack is not done (STI's). Rape crisis counselors are trained to help people deal with those feelings and heal, not sit in judgment and hold people's experiences up against a "rape litmus test". If there is a rape crisis center available to you, I gently suggest you give it a try, unless you feel your school counselor is really qualified in this area. A rape crisis counselor can also help you decide whether you want to pursue reporting to authorities or confronting the perpetrator. Most crisis centers have a hotline that you can call anonymously 24/7. There's also some good self-help material out there if you want to work on your own.

I can totally understand your terror re. STI's and it's good you're getting tested. But the statistical likelihood that you were infected is very small. I'd recommend taking this off your worry list for now, and focus on your emotional recovery and healing, which is something you can control.

I posted re. your relationship in the other thread before I read this one. Knowing that you are going through this at the same time only reinforces the suggestions I made there, that you observe and honor your own feelings without judging them, and take the time you need to sort things out.

I am so sorry you are going through this. I have enormous respect and appreciation for your insightful, intelligent, balanced posts over time - you are a strong, beautiful woman with such a brilliant mind! - and I'm very confident that you'll emerge from this awful period with an even deeper perspective. But I am sad at the pain you're experiencing right now and sorry that we live in a world where things like this happen. Sending you healing energy.

(((angie)))

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post Mar 1 2011, 11:18 AM
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Hey angie, sorry to hear that you're going through so much right now. I think in this space we all respect each others right to refer to our experiences in a way that we feel comfortable. It took me 3 years after my assault to even call it an assault and longer to admit it was rape. We're pretty candid in this space so if you feel comfortable or have the need to post more details please feel free to, you may want to put a trigger warning though. I'm not sure if anyone else still uses this space but oddly I was thinking of posting the day you posted your message.

How were the counsellor and your boyfriend? Did the counsellor offer any advice? I can't speak for the centres there but here in MB the crisis line I called and the centre I went to sexual assault crisis counselling was wonderful. If it's a good centre, then they won't question you no matter what happened. For some people someone hugging them without consent can be just as traumatic as sexual touching without consent and I think most centres will honour the experience of the survivor, no matter what situation has occurred.

It's not unusual to feel like you're to blame but the important thing to remember is that you're not. No matter what you choose to call it its clear that YOU feel violated and taken advantage of. We're told over and over that its up to us to protect ourselves in "vulnerable" situations and when we are assaulted, or taken advantage of its really easy to internalize all those hateful messages that tell us we're the ones who were wrong, we're the ones who deserve blame. One thing that helped me was putting someone else in my situation and thinking about how I would support them or what I would say to them - once I took myself out of it it was easier for me to define it and see how what he did was wrong. It's so easy to be hard on ourselves.

I don't have too much other advice to offer but please post again if you're feeling the need. I still read here pretty regularly and post occasionally. smile.gif



The reason I was coming in here to post was because of a phone call from my younger brother on Friday. He was molested by a neighbour when he was 9 or 10 and I'm the only one he told about two years ago (it happened 11-12 years ago). He called me because he wanted to tell our mom what had happened but he was really anxious about it. We talked until 2AM and it was pretty cathartic for both of us. I tried to prepare him for how much my mom might feel but she's really supportive too so I wasn't too worried. He was scared to tell her who it was but he felt like he really needed to. I thanked him for trusting me with so much before we got off the phone and I was really thankful we can have such a close relationship.

My mom told me yesterday that he had the conversation with her and of course she was wonderful. I don't think she pushed him for too many details and of course she was a bit upset but she was really supportive and seemed to take it, more or less, like I did. I know he didn't do this for me at all, but it felt really good knowing that someone else (either than my partner) was holding this secret. I live a few blocks from the perp (who has never been confronted and was a childhood friend) so it's been strange for me knowing that with no one else being aware. I've never run into him but I know it's only a matter of time and it's nice knowing someone else is carrying this information too.

My brother is doing really well though. He goes to therapy but this isn't his main issue anymore and we're both able to talk pretty freely and openly about it which is really freeing and cathartic for me. I'm so happy he was able to make it to this place.


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post Feb 27 2011, 06:36 PM
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Hi everyone. I am looking for some advice, I guess. A few weeks ago I had a non-consensual, unprotected event. I don't want to call it rape, exactly, it wasn't violent or even psychologically coercive. More that I was taken advantage of while drunk, by a stranger, in a situation that I had more than one opportunity to escape from and would have, had I been sober. I said the word "no" a lot, but other than that I have pretty much no case for calling it assault. Especially in Texas. I know this is a survivor's space and I'm not sure what the rules are here so I don't want to go into any details. At the moment I hate thinking about it anyways.

I have only told a school counsellor and my boyfriend (we have been currently spending "time apart" before this happened and still are). I know I should report this but I don't know really how or to who and right now I am still blaming myself for getting into the situation in the first place and I feel almost like I don't have the right to call it any kind of sexual assault. I feel like they won't believe me when I go in to the center or call. I am really, really angry at myself. I have no idea why I feel this way, I always considered myself a feminist and a strong person and all of those things and there is no reason I should be letting myself feel like this.

I'm going in for all the STI tests I can but right now I'm just terrified of what I might have. I can't believe how long it takes to know and that I may not be able to get my health insurance to cover this. The thought of spending half a year waiting for the results of an HIV test terrifies me.
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