[mandolyn]

(((letterwriters))) ...
especially (((keenkitty))).

dear bad mandi,
you know what you have to do.
just do it.

stop falling back on the old familiar excuses. i'm lazy. i'm a born procrastinator. yada yada yada. stop perpetuating the self-defeat. end the self-sabotage cycle.

just.do.it.
love, good mandi xoxo

[voodoo_princess]

Dear E,
What is going on with you? You seem to have been withdrawing more and more over the past year and now when I do get to see you, it's like being around a stranger. I noticed it starting when you started dating J and I just chalked it up to the newness of the relationship between the two of you. So what can I chalk it up to now? You never call anymore, unless you want something. You never come by, ever, and I live right up the street from you and your work so you could stop by anytime. I am no longer comfortable coming to your house because you and J's behavior makes me feel uncomfortable, like I'm some intruder instead of like I'm your FRIEND. You seem so FAKE and DISTRACTED when I see you, like you're ON or something. Like an actress. I have tried to invite you both to do things, to involve J now that you seemed to have felt the need to MARRY this person, not that you invited me or anything! But, when I ask you to do things with me, you tell me you have to see what HIS mood is? and call me back!!!! Then you don't call back. I invite you to do something and you refuse to make a decision until you ASK HIM, except he's OUT with friends and you can't get ahold of him and when he does get home HE has ALREADY MADE PLANS for BOTH of you. Good thing you were waiting around all day to ASK HIM about OUR plans while he was out making plans for both of you and NOT waiting around to ask you (can you FEEL the sarcasm there?). Then you cave in and do what HE wants you to do with HIS friends even though I asked WAY IN ADVANCE for you to get together with me! God, you almost seem like a snob, like you're too good to hang out with me and the Mr. now that you're married. It also seems that maybe J is calling ALL the shots and CHOOSING your friends for you. I can't believe either that you come to my daughters birthday party, hardly speak to anyone EXCEPT J, who doesn't speak to ANYONE and you both huddle in the corner of the kitchen with your son who totally freaks out about EVERYONE and EVERYTHING (maybe you guys are taking "close knit family" a bit far, huh?) Maybe you should pull that "I'm SOOOOOO married" pole out of your ASS and be a fucking friend, get out a bit more, try socialising your son a bit (with someone besides J...... and you wonder why your son SUPER FREAKS over everything?) and try to dislodge yourself from his (your son's) ass a bit (what are you trying to do, keep him from growing up? from having actual experiences?), J's ass too (GET UNSTUCK GIRL, THERE IS MORE TO LIFE) I'm not sure why I even care because the more I think about it, the more you seem like a person I wouldn't want to be friends with anyway. You want someone who will be there for YOU, but where are you when someone else is in need. Oh, that's right, you're at home playing Polly Perfect with you're neurotic 1 year old and a husband you've KNOWN LESS THAN A YEAR!
You know, now that I've written this, I don't think we are friends anymore. And I'm OK with that. The world is FULL of shallow people, I can find another one of you if I want to, or maybe I'll hold out for a REAL friend.
R