[culturehandy]

I confess that after the relationship that I have been out of for 7 months, I am truly terrified of being in a relationship again. I am afraid to give my all, and let someone get close to me. I will not go through that again.

(((((busties)))))

[runningwestward]

I tried to hand in my final thesis today to the faculty. And it was rejected for formatted reasons that were not detailed on the check list but rather on a link from a link. Today was the deadline for last semester. I cried. I am still upset. But I confess that I am also relieved. With everything going so well, too well, lately I was just waiting for something to go wrong. Just to know that I am still me and my theme song is still Expo 86.

[mandolyn]

i'm beginning to understand that i'm a substance-abuser, like my grandfather and father and brother and sister and half of my cousins ... and not "just" a social drinker/user. (holy shit, is that a hard sentence to write.)

but i have no intentions of giving up all my fun crutches.

but i realize i need to work hard on this mental health thing.

[sybarite]

Lilacwine, I am still as awkward in work or networking situtations sometimes as I was in high school, and I'm in my 30s. I can pull down a blind of smooth nifty-witter sometimes but when I slip up I feel 10 years old.

[lilacwine13]

I hate cell phones as well, and do own one. (I hate carrying the dumb thing around however and about half the time I leave it at home, or else it's shut off.)

Knorl, I've started doing more reading about Alzheimer's and other forms of memory loss, it's something that I need to learn more about. I have to do more mentally challenging things as well, TV doesn't do it for me (no matter how interesting the shows are). The thing that worries me the most is that my mom doesn't view it as a problem, she thinks as long as she can do her job and she isn't forgetting anything major, she's fine. I just worry what will happen when something major happens, or when my dad's memory starts slipping (He seems fine now, I think his parents' didn't have many problems until they were almost 80.), or stop being such a worrywart in the first place.

Confession: I am eating chocolate for lunch, and there's nothing anyone can do about it.
Also, I just realized that I am even more awkward now than when I was in high school, which is rather pathetic.

[sybarite]

Freckle, thanks so much for that, that's so reassuring. I hope you're right.

[freckleface2727]

Beauty-

I hate cell phones too! (and yes I have one, but no, I don't much know how to use it.)

Sybarite,
I totally know what you mean and no worries for feeling that way.
you're cool in a way to her no one else in her life can be just by bein' you.

[wombat]

Why thankee, MissFreckle, for your support, and for the support of others --- you know who you are! Who PM'd me.

I am also pleased to know you all, and I think we are all facing down darkness and bringing in more light.

girltrouble has beautiful paintings, which I must say here, cause, I confess, I forgot where she posted them!!

[sybarite]

Although I loved seeing so much of my family and friends over the holidays, I am delighted (and relieved) to have the house to myself.

I love the mister's daughter and am so happy that we get along... but still resent that when she stays with us I don't get a minute to myself and we have to listen to her video games. I should not feel this way, because she rocks, is good, intelligent company and doesn't stay with us often.

[Beauty & her...]

I confess that although I act like I know what I'm doing...half the time I have no frickin' clue what I'm doing at work.

I also confess that I don't want to go to work today and that I'm procrastinating as much as possible.

I miss cigarettes.

I hate cell phones.

[freckleface2727]

I confess to finding donald trump funny in a clip I saw of his feud w/ rosie " I'm not running for office." in his refusal to be PC and apologise.
I also confess to not being able to Stand rosie o donnel and I'm not sorry for it.
just bc she's gay doesn't mean I have to like her. there are a lot of straight people I dislike for less reasons than being obnoxious.

I confess to being very much in my own head lately and being unsure if it's good or not.

and I finally confess (tho I know this belongs elsewhere) to thinking that wombat is just rockin' w/ goodness here lately, and I am much glad to have made her acquaintence here.

[free_spirit]

I have a lot of questions that I want to ask Girltrouble, but I don't want to say the wrong shit.

I guess I could use PM to ask my questions, but I am hesitant for some reason....

(ok, GT, come in here and give some encouragement, so the journalist in me can ask you all of these questions that I want the answers to! )

XOXO

[go_kayte]

I confess:
I'm queer, I just play a straight girl in everyday life.

It's funny cause I came out when I was 14. Then a few years later I went back in for 6 years cause I had a boyfriend. Still do. Doesn't make me straight.
*Slowly coming out again*

[zoya]

i said this before somewhere down the page, but I'll say it again - I like this guy i met more than i'm willing to admit to anyone.

[rantrave88]

i haven't smoked well since august and i miss it.

i miss my quasi boyfriend overseas and will probably quasi cheat on him and if he found out he would be really fucking heartbroken.

half of me is scared that the above isn't true for him and he is having lovely sex right now with some other american chick.

[wombat]

Note to self: Do not engage. Do not be provoked. You have been a class act for the most part. Just rise above. Ignore. Do not escalate. Stay positive. Maintain dignity.

[wombat]

culturehandy!! oooh!!

I think you all are gutsy and worthwhile. And if I gotta say that a million times, that's okay, because we all need it.

I just lose patience when somebody fishes for reassurance constantly but kisses up to bullies and turns on friends. It's like, wtf?

For the most part, giving acceptance and sharing knowledge can only be postive thiings, so, patience, I need more of it.

[culturehandy]

I spent New Years super fucking high! (I mean I travelled through time!) listening to my ipod and lying in bed, it was intense.

I have an ipod...I bought into the masses, and I really love it...

I got together with this guy who I have had previously had bad sex with, then we had really good sex, we got together and it was really nice, and highly intimate, he was even a good kisser, which I really wasn't expecting, I have a wee crush on him...

[free_spirit]

I want to be selfish, and me, me, me all year this year. I want to put myself on the front burner and only do things that are 100% in my and my twins best interest.

I don't really care how family and friends feel/ will feel. I'm going to do me to the fullest extent, and I wont feel bad about it.

[knorl05]

good-grief-grrl: you sound pretty bold to me; that, my dear, is not foolish. only fools never try anything new.

lilacwine13: learn everything you can to avoid what you think to be the inevitable. you are in control of your fate.. advancements in science happen everyday. i've read the best way to avoid alzheimers is to keep your mind active and challenged.