Hey girls, I have a lot to catch up on. I finished my school semester but I had to drop everything else in my life to do it. Then went on vacation and there was no cell coverage, no 3G, and no wireless where we stayed! It was beautiful. I'm off to Alaska again in 10 days but I wanted to say hi before going.
Babyblue, I hope you get exactly the wedding dress you ordered! You had every right to be mad, just because you ordered a specific dress and she wanted to change it because of her own assumptions, and she thought her assumptions were more important than your own desires for the dress. You're the one wearing it, not her! At my wedding, people better not care if I want to prance down the aisle in a red bikini holding a bouquet of condoms, I'll damn well do what I want regardless of what tradition or convention says. (haha I wouldn't do that, as fun as it would be, my mother would be mortified!)
DeeRay, I hope things work out, stand your ground with the doctors and if something doesn't feel right, don't let them tell you otherwise. However. Your body is NOT broken. Don't let yourself fall into that, I know it's hard, but even if there is a hormone imbalance or thyroid problem, you will be OK and things can be done, and you will feel better. I know how you feel, I had some problems a couple years ago, not just with possible pcos as I talked about in the birth control thread, but with an irritable bladder and other things. I was lucky, I guess, that a lot of things were stress related and have since resolved on their own, but at the time I really felt like I couldn't trust my own body and it was letting me down. There's lots you can do for yourself while you're waiting, especially for these specific things - look up thyroid-friendly diets, which I bet will be similar to a pre-diabetic diet. Stop eating processed foods, and try to minimize anything and everything with added sugars and artificial sweeteners. IF you can afford it, make sure all your meat and diary is organic, without added hormones. Exercise. If you can afford it, seek a second opinion, and try to find out if being on the BCP will influence the thyroid tests in any way. Send me a pm if you want, I don't want to derail too much either, but this thread is OK for that
When I was 15 I was planning to get implants, but by the time I was old enough and had the money, I didn't want surgery anymore, although I still had a lot of emotional problems about it. Now, the idea of elective surgery makes me laugh, I barely have the patience to heal a cartilage piercing, I would hate dealing with the surgery and the healing process, and having the extra weight and bulk on my chest would drive me up the wall. It would just get in the way, all the time. bleagh. Nope, happy the way I am. And it is true, especially once you start hanging out with guys over the age of 25, their attitudes begin to mature quickly and their ideas of what a naked woman looks like aren't primarily gained from porn anymore. A lot of them realize how much nicer women look without the stretch-marked, round, bolt-on (haha love it!) porno boobs and plastic vulvas (don't even get me into the genital plastic surgery in the modern porn business ick ick ick!!) And a lot of them are just happy to actually get to sometimes hang out with women naked, of any shape or size
I don't get bothered too much when people start talking about breasts, depending on the context. Or when they are in movies, because quite often my friends will all call out fake boobs in a movie as soon as we see them, it's a fun game. And I am finally at the point when I can appreciate when another woman looks beautiful, whatever her chest size, and it doesn't hurt my feelings if I know she looks more conventionally beautiful than me. I'm not in competition with her. It doesn't mean anything to me. I hope to age gracefully my whole life, and if I can't be accepting now of the eternal existence of younger, beautiful girls now, I won't be a very happy old lady. I'm beautiful in my own way and always will be, and I am a good person in my own way, and I can do so many things those kids don't even know about yet